KissTheRainNe

2011-06-15T13:05:00.000-07:00

Dearest blog,

Sorry i've taken you for granted for i only think about u when i feel down. Thank you for being there all the time.

I'm actually looking at MAS website wanting to book my ticket home. and then i have this indescribable mixed feeling in me. I'm excited to go home and yet i feel so lost all of a sudden. I'm excited to see my family but another part of me feel helpless because i'm really not sure whether i want to work in Malaysia.

Finally i've graduated but thats not my real graduation. No one is gonna come back for the real one. So here is a pic of my college day.

Photosession @ St.Ignus church.

I've taken the road less traveled by, and that has really made all the difference.
;)

I'm in love with this boy.

2011-04-27T10:35:00.001-07:00

Lately i'm deeply in love with this boy 小小彬 , he's not only cute but also talented. Omgosh since when i started loving kids so badly?

Been watching him alot on youtube..and got to know that his father was the cute boy 小彬彬 from 星星知我心.I don't mind having a son like him now!

I'm surprised how much i've changed, maybe cause i'm going back now. and i am really happy working in this department, i get to learn RCT(Root canal treatment) and its a new thing so i love it. I successfully done a case with 3 appointments and i'm so happy that i can communicate with my patient, no language barrier and he is a christian. He made my day by saying im a blessing to him, from God ;) and then i don't charge him after that cause i was too happy. U know thr is this thing between christians. hehe.

Gtg i wanna watch him again now.

2011-03-11T22:21:00.000-08:00

The reason why we had food poisoning. Mad fellas swallowing raw oyster ;p

Be strong, ignore that extension and u have 5 more months to go.

....and u can see ur family tomoro!

Hang on there...

Always believe that a better life is right ahead of u when u complete this..

Cheers :)

And i will walk away from here without turning back. ;)

Another emo post.

2011-03-05T06:57:00.000-08:00

Hi, its me again. Another emo post again. Sorry to keep u emo here.

I have another 6 months in india. And i can feel that depression is slowly coming towards me again, clinging to me not wanting to let go.Arghh.

It's just me i guess, i can't just live here happily anymore. I wanna go back. But another part of me is feeling miserable, looking at the people i was once close to, my close friends, my lecturers who taught me so many things in my life., etc. There are moments when i felt touched looking at them and i wanted to cry. Lols obviously i didn't but yeah mixed feelings.

As i said, no one could actually understand my life here. Even slight bit of understanding makes me happy. But if u know nothing, it is better that u don't comment on anything, that would bring me less misery.If u asked me why do i always have to fight with nurses and other people, im really tired to explain. I'm not at all happy fighting with them, i had to raise my voice to get things done. With these people. That is why we studied bout "LOW CLASS" people in our community dentistry text book. Their mentality will always be different from us.

I've had enough.
I'm so tired.
and don't be surprised if u're betrayed by someone whom u least expect him/her to do it.

Accident.

2011-02-23T22:17:00.000-08:00

Just got back fr the hospital, too many patients before me and i couldn't wait any longer.
I had backache and headache from yesterday's minor accident. I couldn't describe how much i hate the people here.

I watched a baby delivery at a government hospital yesterday. It was amazing. But i do not want to talk about it now. All i care about was this stupid accident that happened to me cz of the stupid people here.(pardon me, i do not have a better word to describe them)

I was craving for kfc, and recently my friend bot a scooter, we thought it was just nearby so we took her scooter. I was sitting at the passenger's seat(obviously how many seats it has) and i saw the guard lifting da pole(u know when the cars pass by they open and close it) for the 2 incoming cars to enter, and somehow he saw us but he was lowering it down. And so we asked him to open it so we could pass and the driver crossed over safely and suddenly i felt an impact, a very strong impact if i were to describe it i would say It is like a big bell in a shaolin temple being knocked by a thick long tree trunk.

Yes it was that bad. and i screamed. I blacked out. My friend thought i was panic but a moment later she noticed that i wasn't acting normal. I was covering half of my face with my hands. She told me to step down, i responded after the 3rd time she repeated the same thing.. I didn't want to accept any fact that i am being knocked and not knowing how my face looked at that moment. But the most important thing to me was my eyes, i thought i was blind. Cause my spectables were broken.

And slowly i opened my eyes, and thank God i can see things around me. Then i noticed there is a big bump on my forehead, i went into the guard's room to check out my face and i saw a few scratches n red forehead. And we asked him why did he lower down the pole, he said the kid pulled it at first, and then he said da kid was blocking him etc etc etc. I'm surprised how he can just push everything away. Then we asked the kids dad to come down and u know what......he just said what can i do! and he went up! Then the guard too said that yeah accidents happen what can i do. This is how they retaliate. This is how they run away from their responsibilities.

And i called joe to come down and the both of them were discussing this matter with the guard but he doesnt even feel sorry at all. So i let it go. I'm surprised, that i can actually swallow things now whenever i feel reluctant. See how this country can change a person, see how it gave me my depression.

Feeling insecure, i went to joe's apartment, he gave me a few big ice wrapped in his dad's handkerchief. and i started pressing it against my forehead. It was painful, but i don't want any blue blacks on my face so i did it. I started sobbing then, how much i hate this country and how i feel so helpless over here. I know i can't fight with any of them. Because i kno the next thing they will kick u out of this apartment if u make any big scene. Yes they have a committee here and they are capable of making ur owner kick u out. They hate malaysian students.Since i have 6 more mths here i guess i have to endure it. I've lost my fighting spirit.

And then i demanded for a mirror. He brought a big mirror over to me and i stared at my face for like half an hour. Glad that there are no deep scars on my face.

Then, my friends brought kfc over. Thank god i have all my malaysian friends with me. I can't stay here any longer. I want to leave.

2011-02-19T22:52:00.000-08:00

I've never been honest to myself ever since..i do not know when. Being around with judgemental people who expect u to be pure & innocent is just tiring..
If you know me well enough u would know by now i'm one of da most rebellious person in ur life(anyone's life). Nothing can change me not even my parents.
I'm not trying to push the blame to anyone, i don't always blame the others, i reflect on my own mistakes too. But, if u do not know me, u probably think that i have so much ego that i will never admit that i am wrong.
I've always been tortured over and over again about this issue, it's like stabbing on my wound over and over again. I truely clearly know what i did but WHY am i the one to be blamed for everything that had happened. Why don't people just look at the core of the problems, how the problems started...? I was honest, and i was being judged. I was honest, i was being treated badly. I was honest, and all i heard was the hurtful words which has already reached my limits.
Is that a way to change me? by bringing it up over and over again? U know u can't change me like dis.

...and...
Ever since then, i never voice out my truest feelings anymore.
I never show my trueself anymore.
I just can't be myself anymore.

I'm not as forgiving as i thought. I remember it.

Coming back for cny ;p

2011-01-23T03:44:00.000-08:00

I'm posted in community dentistry ryte now..

Which means i have to go for dental camps in rural area to give free treatment..Because they don't have any hospital/clinic at their area and probably won't be able to afford the private ones.

;)

Screening..Without gloves yes,how to change gloves when there r sooooooo many patients =.='

Life has been more meaningful, being able to help the needy.

I hope God will protect me by not wearing mask and gloves cause we have limited time and we have to screen so many kids. Kids still ok rite? rite? *pray hard.

But too much of work is tiring and sumtimes sickening too. Cause i can't tolerate this rural area and their food, once we were given their water and i dare not drink and i almost died of thirst. Ok im exaggerating.

My fav thing to do - disturb their cows. HAHAHA.

As u can see from my emo post, i'm really at the confuse stage of my life. I just do what i feel like doing, wasting the precious time but i just can't help it because i really do not know what i want. And i am super lazy=.='

Two roads diverge in a yellow wood, and i took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.
My life is so different than others. Shall i tell this with a sigh? No. I'm glad i've traveled this far.
Sadly, the ones i thought who would accompany me till the end are not with me anymore..But it's ok, i believe there is a reason why are they out of my life.
And sometimes, i wish i could be in a better country to enjoy all the fun too.But i guess i can't have both.

Gosh. I'm so confused and i dun have new years resolution at all.
I only wish that i could be less sensitive, i wouldn't feel hurt if i were to be insensitive..i would live a joyful life without worries ;)

I miss the mee sua my grandma used to cook for me. I can't have it this CNY anymore. My mum told me she will try her best to cook as similar to grandma's cooking as possible.

And i miss my manja bren bren the meow meow dog. I have my own language with my dog.
Why am i so childish still? Slap me. ;p

HOW TO GET ABS

2010-12-10T02:47:00.000-08:00

Actually this is not about getting that flat muscular abs, but a flatter stomach..

Yeah today i'm gonna share a secret of how to get a flat stomach in short period of time.
It will probably last u for 2 to 3 days to a week..
But it is really unhealthy to do this..

HOW???

Im a doc im not supposed to teach u all this(ok im a dentist)..

Ok by throwing up.

I had this bloated, fat stomach due to my eating habit(i eat dinner at nite, like after 9pm) and my period..
And aftering getting it all out fr my body, i have a super small and flat tummy.
If u throw up a couple of times ur stomach muscles will be tight and flat.(yeah thats because its empty)
But just by pressing it it is FIRM. Yeah so firm and flat.
Yeah this is a lazy way of dieting and one of my sis used to dig her throat and vomit out all da food she has taken in..and she lost weight!

Yeah exactly like this.

I'm not asking u to try this but at least be glad when u puke. Lol.

I puked yesterday i'm trying to comfort myself ;p

Please don't try this at home ok.

Its bad.

Yah im sure u know.

FML. I had breakfast buffet and nw my stomach is big again. ;C

Enjoy the moment.

2010-12-10T02:24:00.000-08:00

I've realised something.

Sometimes we missed out something in life, be it a person, an event or watever it is...

and u might want it so badly and u pray so hard that God will bring it back once more, so that u'll have the chance to enjoy watever u missed once more..

But it'll always..turn out to be the opposite way..

The perfect memories that u used to have with that person, or sumthing that u used to enjoy will NOT be the same anymore.

It was perfect, only at that moment.

Thats the truth.

SO whatever u are craving for, be it a person, an animal, or even u tried so hard to replace it with sumthing..

It will NOT be the same anymore.
Accept that fact.

U know i was so attached to my baby eagle last time and i cried so much when it left me. And i prayed so hard that God will send me another bird so that i can compensate everything and He did(God is no joke).But its all different now. This bird is smaller, has exact same color as my furball but i just don't wanna keep it, i decided to let it go, i don't want to ruin its life because i can't take care of it properly. and i found da bird a new owner, someone who will love it wholeheartedly, and will not mistreat her like how i used to.

2010-12-07T11:01:00.000-08:00

Everyone hates my bangs.

I'm 23 this year, and i'm at this stage of confusion. Once a friend of mine told me that this is normal, people are confused and unsure of what they want at this age.

I'm really confused, about how should i behave, what do i want, what my future holds, what are my priorities and whether am i, still following God. Yes i am but i am not so persistent like how i used to be.

I can be very mad at certain people at times, but ultimately, isnt that my own fault? for allowing others to affect me..I tend to get attached to people easily, i somehow love people around me so deeply without me realising that i have fallen deeply in love with them. And yeah just small lil things they do can hurt me so much. If i can let them in so easily, why can't they get out of my life when i want them to?

I dun understand. I can't get an answer for this eventho i've thought of it for so many times. Why do human hurt each others? why do we say mean things to bring others down? why some people can be so selfish? Why are those pretenders so great at pretending to like someone when they hate them to the core behind their back? Is it time for me to learn how to pretend too? Because i can't smile or talk if I don't like u. Look how weak am i, bcuz i'm unable to do this, i can't live in this society..

2010-11-16T12:22:00.000-08:00

People come and go..and they left when u least expected it..
To be here for the entire 5 years, many sacrifices i have made..
and most of them are beyond my control..
i felt like a helpless lamb and can only leave it to God..
I believe He knows what's best for me.

During my 1st year here, my maternal grandfather passed away, since i've only seen him once, i don't feel much cause he left my grandma and the kids many years ago.He had 4 wives.

Then 2 years ago, my paternal grandpa had lung cancer,3rd stage.One day i called him, told him to wait for me to come back and he passed away just 1 day b4 my arrival.

Then next was my maternal grandmother, she had asthma and suddenly difficulty in breathing, but she was fine after that,she started eating and talking and suddenly she went into coma,stayed in ccu for few days and left.I was quite close with her, we used to talk a lot, sitting on the swing in her house, she told me how mischievous was my mum last time, and i miss her "lou shu fun"..her cookings, her everything..But i guess i'm running away from the fact that she is not here anymore..I sometimes feel that she is still with us, somewhere out there..

Then because of all that incidents that haunted me, i decided to visit my one and only grandmother more often, i saw her on webcam, i talked to her, i slept with her, i massaged her..During CNY, she used to cook my fav meesua with boiled egg and pork for us, i even bought my ticket to come home this CNY, i miss all her cookings, i don't think anyone can cook dishes as delicious as her, her spring rolls..everything....Just when i thought i will see her again..
My dad sms-ed me b4 he left to china, he told me to call my grandma cause she fell down and i thought i will call her the next day because i was too busy talking to my mum and i was tired after that..I feel so bad when i heard the news..I feel so empty, still can't believe what had happened is real..can't believe that people can just leave the world just like that...

Realisation

2010-10-30T05:02:00.000-07:00

Hi all =>
I'm totally fine now. I wasn't depressed i think i was just emo ;p
Best therapy for this was HOME.Thanks for the tongsui everynite and my fav bbq plaza and all msian food and my fwens who showered me with lotsa love thank u!

The department i am posted in ryte now is extremely busy everyday, i can't even breathe!! and me likey but sumtimes i hope i can slack a bit cause the patient flow is insane! I only have time to reply 1 sms each time i get to rest(when i have like 4-5messages) then i have to proceed to the next patient. I sumtimes get 8 messages and uncountable miss calls cause my beloved caryn is very FREE. I'm sorry i don't have much time for u, and when i'm done working i'll be so so tired and all i wanted to do was just sleep.

I hope i develop some abs by running around the department but i know this miracle will never happen =D
Dream on.

and there is this PG he encouraged me to learn, to diagnose properly and he actually let me palpate every patients and interpret x-rays whenever he has the chance to. I'm learning a lot everyday and even without any close friends here with me i can still manage and stay happy. Hehehe. Because whenever there is no patient i am happy, but when i'm too free i want patient i am so contradicting (got this from sze)

Gonna go oink oink now nite nite!

2010-09-19T10:18:00.000-07:00

Stopped reading for a while.
and still, i'm depressed.

What is wrong with me? Will be back in my comfort zone soon. Looking forward to it. At least now there is something in life for me to look forward to. I hope time will pass faster.

I definately can't be a housewife or someone who sits at home and do nothing. I feel that life is meaningless. I need my family ryte now. I miss them so much.

I thought i would like internship, without books, without exams but i was wrong. At least give me something to do! Grrr.Rarh.

2010-09-13T09:01:00.001-07:00

I dedicated most of my time to the books.
So far i've read - The kite runner
A thousand splendid sun
Think like a men, act like a lady
Anne Frank's diary

And I love the 1st 2 novels, written by the same author.
I know i am slow, i do not even have free time for this last time, and now, im into my books. My emotion fluctuates a lot reading 'em.

I know that many people love The Kite Runner, I wonder why. Now that i have found the answer, because all of us long for a sincere, faithful friend, who can share ur joys and sorrows, know every single bit of ur secrets by not spilling it out.(including not telling their bfs^^)

I sometimes find myself miserable living this life, because i find that i can trust no one. Friendships, relationships so far had been disappointing to me.
I've been betrayed, but who doesn't experience this in this realistic world?
I've been longing for someone truthful to be my close friend, being miles away from home, i wonder, does anyone of u still remember me? bother keeping in touch with me? I did took the effort with a few, but the friendship slowly fades away..The world is moving so fast and i'm stuck at the same place here, being the old usual me. But i do see that people has changed. To the good and to the bad.

I sometimes suspect that i am a bisexual but i truely know inside that i am just searching for a girl, a girl who can come close to my heart. But i know this is impossible, because i find it hard to trust, hard to trust anyone, but myself.

Depressed

2010-09-02T10:52:00.000-07:00

I know i've been so lazy to even type a word here. I think i want a new blog. I dun even wanna read whatever i have written in the past. I dunno why.

I'm very emotional. Probably bcuz the people here are pitiful enough to make me feel depressed. Yes i feel depressed whenever i am alone or i am too free, but yet i need just a little of my own space at night. around this time. I need to be alone, have my own privacy to do whatever i wanna do. Like walking in the room without wearing anything and etc. I know i shouldn't write this. This is my blog and i really wanna be true to myself but there are so many things i want to write here but i just can't. Human nature, we mind what others will think of us. But i know i'm in a state higher than the others, i can ignore ur comment to a certain extend, basically i can ignore whatever bad things u wanna think about me.

Internship is indeed very boring. But this life is carefree. I know everyone would be dying for this but i am feeling somewhat empty inside. I want to do something more, learn more(but not about dentistry maybe?).Well, about the world, new technologies because i know, i am way far bhind from whatever that are happening in malaysia. Yeah im so outdated and i've just finished reading "The kite runner". This story touches my heart in everyway, there were moments when i feel lumps in my throat, or tears pooling around my lower eyelid. Lols. It educated me in someway, and made me wanna be a better person. I wanna be nicer to others, i know it's hard, like what the bible says, love your neighbour like how u love urself. Fuhh it is so damn hard.

Now i am reading anne frank's diary(wohhhhhhhh i know i am so slow). I know but u have to understand that i do not even have free time to read books, bcuz...not bcuz i was studying but i wasted my time surfing the net and watching drama HAHAHA.

So yeah im longing for the day that i have stayed here long enuff to go home again. I miss my parents and my bro. One of the happiest things in dis holiday is about him, he talked so much with us and he used to be very quiet. And i love it. it made me happy and feel very contented, i know i dun deserve anything but God has given me so so much. I really dunno how to thank Him. I know i am not good enough and im jz a sinner=(

and my bro piggy back me from upstairs to downstairs ;p

and my daddy kissed me on my cheeks a number of times.

and my mummy explained to me whatever i felt unfair about my childhood. That was just silly of me to misunderstand everything. I know all of them love me deeply, truely, madly. haha.

I wanna go home=*(

But if i kept going back when will i ever finish my internship then?

I will be here alone and everyone will be in malaysia starting their housemanship. Sobs.

I'm feeling abit depressed will i even fall into depression...and having to take anti-depressant?

What is wrong with me?

I don't wanna be so free PLEASE.

Life will be perfect if i'm back for good=(

seriously.

Im so bored and dis is my friend in clinic. U know im just kidding ryte?

2010-08-18T12:36:00.001-07:00

The existence of Facebook made me lazy to blog.Sowee!

So yeah today im very lazy to blog im just gonna post the pics of my new hairstyle,no i shud say haircut..Cuz i dun even know how to style it anymore.

Been chilling alot, shaking legs and nothing's bothering my life. WOohoo. But soon i started to feel bored, meaningless and i want to do something more! Like, start my own business? which is impossible for now ;) Well, i'm all ready to go back to serve my patients, giving them confident smile. And now i just wanna finish my internship FAST! so that i can come back for good cz life in india is NO FUN at all. GAh! So hopefully i won't fly back too often so i can complete it.

and stop tempting me to come home!

P.s : Having a title Dr. infront of my name is nothing. I feel so so small ryte now ;(

Home sweet Home.

2010-07-22T10:04:00.000-07:00

I'm glad because i'm finally back home. Again.
Everything is so new to me.
A new strange place, nothing is familiar to me.
The only thing that makes me feel comfortable is having my family around me.
And my clingy doggy-Bren Bren.(Teh bren bren hahaha what a funny name)

Please do not judge me ok I have sumthing to tell u...LOLS.
I do not even know how to switch on my room lights, adjusting my fan speed and so on.
See i told u not to judge me lols..Ok u can laugh all u want.
I'm loving my house, but i haven't stepped on every inch of it yet. and there are many more things for me to discover. My problem is i am too lazy i feel tired walking to one corner to another..So much to walk compared to my small lil cosy apartment in India. I dun wanna go back. My mum called my bro using her handphone to wake him up today..instead of walking up..I went to knock on his door and noticed my hair straightener n other products r in his room..Wth lols.

I was quite blur the other day i dun even kno my dad bought a new baby and i thought his volvo xc60 sumthing was my mum's CRV lols.they were waiting for me to react but i realised when i reached home. My bro was driving it at a speed of 200 and testing its stability but i really did not realise the difference. Maybe i should just drive a kancil and imagine that it is a mini cooper^^

Ok daddy ajak me for bakuteh tomoro morning.wanted to go for massage but fullhouse so we had taiwanese food & bubble tea as supper.^^ gotta sleep with my big stomach now, soon have to zap the fats away...real soon..but lazy..=.="

2010-06-15T13:19:00.000-07:00

It's 150am ryte now. Been wasting time since this afternoon.
I can't believe i had dengue and it HEALED by itself. omgosh i recovered just like that.
SEE? *proud lols.

Been talking to mummy alot and my prob is i never seem to feel contented with wat i have and i complain almost everyday. WHY am i like that?
I seem to get frustrated with the people here alot. like..ALOT.
and i hate this place so much i can't wait to graduate but seems lk i am not studying much.
my finals are in less than 1 mth time.

Now,i am confused. I feel a lil lost. What should i do after i graduate? will i be stucked with these clinic works forever because i just don't feel like it. Does it feels good when sumone calls u doctor or will i feel better if they just call me by the name? I guess i still prefer people calling me JING JU or baby..or lately they've been calling me BABY TEH. Ya bcuz u girls pamper me like that and look at my attitude now omgosh..But thanks tho, i feel so lucky having u all to pamper me here and treat me like a baby.

I shall start studying soon. Dun wanna be here for another extra months. I have no energy to get angry at those people anymore ;)

忍- word of wisdom fr my daddy.

2010-06-09T10:46:00.000-07:00

I finally have the strength to blog.

Been sick for a week..throughout exam week!

Wah let me tell u the needles in hospital are getting fatter and fatter.
It is so painful now to take blood test.
My 1st blood report revealed that i have low platelet and leucocyte count.
I had fever for like 3 days then it subsided. So i thought i was fine but i started having diarrhoea after that.=.=''

And then..i have rashes ALL OVER THE LOWER LIMBS.

So i tahan and i went to see a doctor right after my exam. The doctor said it is erythema(the rashes) and he is worried that my platelet is still dropping.

And yeah great he prescribed another blood test. and omgosh it was so blardy painful. T_____T

i just felt like crying at that moment. and dunno how many times i screamed cz of this. I THINK THE PROBLEM IS WITH THAT LADY LA, NOT PRO AT ALL.

At nite i went to collect my report..it wasn't ready yet. Today afternoon i went again they dun wanna print my results out because they think the platelet is a little low and they dare not confirm it, they need to check with the higher authority! omgosh scary ryte. Because the doctor said if it falls below 100k i must go for platelet transfusion 0.0

So finally i got my result and it was 115k so still fine. Dropped from 130k. min value is 150k.

Weirdest thing on earth is, i din eat anything for almost a week and my weight is still the same. =.= but i look a lot thinner, my legs are as thin as chicken feet now. so fugly omg.

I think the best person in the world are always our parents. My mum din get to sleep properly when i was sick, she even planned to fly to india eventho she hates dis place. She told me she hopes she cud replace me. *teary eyes wuwuwuwuwu.

and second best is my Baby JOE. hahaha. He took care of me so well i think without him im already dead by now. Im serious.

My rashes are getting worst,now i have it on my arms and face.i hope this is not due to the decrease of platelet count. ;( and i have pain in the back of the eyes. i think i have every signs and symptoms of dengue fever,but the best part is,i dun have fever now.

My ugly legs.

TB +ve

2010-04-30T01:23:00.000-07:00

This is not a fake skull.

Hahaha. Remember i used to play with the skull in 1st year and now i am playing with it again. Was camhoring with it;p

Today i had a Tuberculosis positive patient.

When everyone heard that he is TB +ve all my batchmates ok..ALL OF THEM STRAIGHT SIAM FAR FAR AWAY FROM HIM=(

Usually when anyone has patient we will stand around him/her to help her out and observe the case.

They left me alone there with double gloves and double mouth mask(universal precaution)gasping for air. Even my lecturer who was supposed to guide me asked me"u can handle urself rite?" then he continued with his work.

I was supposed to extract his tooth and after 2 injections he still feels pain. =(

then i gave another one. 0.0

Initially i thought it was because of my local anesthesia skill(2nd time giving LA) but the heartless nurse told me to just EXTRACT and ignore him.;/

Obviously no la when he said pain and all so i tried to be gentle and wasted a lot of time there=(

Then Joe came to me and told me that it might just be his psychology. SO i went to inform my lecturer about this and he thought so.

So he asked me to extract again and the patient pushed my hand away saying tt he had alot of pain=( He was so skinny and looked so pitiful and i dun have the heart to do so. All i did was pujuk him like a small kid.

Then my lecturer can't tahan anymore and then he came. When he tried to extract again the patient was complaining. Then finally my sir noticed that he is not having any PAIN at all.

2nd attempt and the patient pissed da sir off.

and my lec said LEAVE HIM.

then my patient woke up and went away..

Just like that..

0.Ov

So obvious that he din wanna extract his teeth i dunno who is forcing him to do so. Poor fella.

THen the sacarstic sister told me to wash my hands 10 times and soak myself in dettol for the whole day. =.=''

Kochin here i come..

2010-04-07T05:22:00.000-07:00

Hey darlings;)
i downloaded a photo editing program and edited some pics of my Kochin trip. It was really tiring so i guess i'll post up the rest some other time.

My fren who doesn't wish to be featured here.
and also this post act as a test dose to see if anyone cud recognise her.

Loving my life.

R.I.P my dearest grandma.

If u guys see my mum anywhere please help me to cheer her up and make sure she is ok and i'll give u FREE SCALING nxt time I promise^^

2010-03-25T18:28:00.000-07:00

Yesterday and the day before i slept from 8pm till 230am.
And today oh gosh i woke up at 630 and i slept from last nite 630pm.
Awesomie ryte?

I think tis is due to a drug that im taking. To clear my airway passage.
Yesterday i woke up having breathlessness searching for my nasal spray, took a puff n slept back.
This is making me worry cz my condition has become so bad.
Went to see an ENT doc today and i found out that i canot use nasal decongestant spray for more than a week=( There will be side effects=(

Now im using a steroid spray 0.0
My turbinates are so big now it blocks my airway.
Maybe india is too dusty now, they're repairing road EVERYWHERE.
Guess i have to wear a mouthmask when i go out eventho i will look funny=/

Ya so i have plenty of time b4 going to da hospital so i play dress-up to class. Haha normally i woke up 15mins b4 class n i will look like a zombie in class.

Anyways, my grandma is sick, doctor suspected cancer but no one wanna let her go tru that biopsy cz its suffering and she is so old already.
She fell unconscious the other day and she woke up once. She's in CCU now.
See, everytime wen i plan a trip to uk thgs lidat will happen and makes me wonder whether i shud jz cancel the plan.
:( :( :(
thinking of running home for a while but dun think i can afford to lose any attendance.

Pray for my grandma pls!

2010-03-20T12:07:00.000-07:00

Just a short update=) Having exams nao.

Today i dropped my book in the middle of a busy road.
and when i realised it i was already far infront.

2 person stopped by to tell me that i dropped my book.
Then when i turned around i saw my classmate risking his life to pick up the book for me.
When i walked back he passed the book to me.
Who in the world in Malaysia will have a heart of gold like this.=)
Thank U. THank u so much^^
Sometimes i really think the people here are damn nice.

2010-03-07T10:59:00.000-08:00

Hello!!

Finally, my posting in Prosthodontics has ended.
U know i just hate making dentures I HATE touching every materials in the lab.
and that day the wax dropped on my new jeans and it is forever there now HOW TO REMOVE IT? =(
I always burn my hand too. T.T
AHH lab works are just too messy! (that's why we need a teachnician u see)

Anyways i should study. Exams in like 7 days omgosh i hate exams.
Tata.
I miss seven sistahs <3>

Happy Birthday to Me.

2010-02-28T11:08:00.000-08:00

Shit. I'm officially 23 years OLD now. I feel so old. Omgosh but if u asked me how old am i, i will still admit that i am 23.

Eventho im at this shit place but this year i had a memorable birthday. It doesn't matter where i am, because its the company that matters. U guys made my day by keeping me company and I felt like i was the pwincess of the day ;D

The nite b4 my bday i went out with Poo den Max n Joe. Did something u will never wanna know and had dinner;) it was awesome i tell u. Awesome-posome.

Then knowing that they will surprise me i tried to dig sumthing out from JOE and hahaha i trapped him to say it out. SIgh i am just so smart like that.Instead of letting the others to surprise me i TRIED figuring out how they gonna surprise me. I am just so kwai lan lidat=p

When i reached home i saw someone closing my main door, something fishy was going on. I started giggling and immediately opened my door, i saw Suphing's slippers out there. Without looking for others' shoes because i was jz too eager to find out who were in my house i rushed to my housemate's room, knocked few times n i opened it thinking that Suphing might be there with her.

Aha, no one was inside and guess where were they?

Why lah i so dumb this time.

And when i was busy looking out for them they lighted this up and when i came in..

I was really surprised but..

The fireworks finished already. FML.

I dunno why i guai guai let saeah did that to my face.

On my lover's lap. U know rite we KISSED. =p See she so sayang me.

Roses from my homie.

They said it was reli hard to blow these balloons. THANKS babies. OH ya i know im just too lazy to put on the matching set of bedsheet. It is all over the place so i just use watever i can find.Ya im sucha pig but who gonna enter my room lah ryte. OK i will next time ok.

They put this in my room too. Housemie bought it from singapore for me
OK the next day as usual went to class. With that sleepy face of mine.

Surprisingly lecture ended half an hour earlier so we decided to go for breakfast.

@ Khairali. The only place which serves NON-VEG breakfast in the morning. Owner is a muslim i think. And hello that pink top cost me 1245 rupees. I duno why i bought it because caryn n poo kept saying i look nice in it and HELLO it looks lk some less than rm50 top ryte. What to do this is india im jz so desperate lidat.

Then 4 of us squeezed ourselves in one auto 3 wheelers cz we need to rush to class Was super late already! and this driver super mean he charged us 2 times the price. See lah take advantage when they know u are rushing. cheapo.

U know what i did after class? I went home to sleep. FML. Ya i just love to sleep i had to sleep on my bday too.

Then dressed up for dinner.

This year they made it at the pool side for me ^^

We had buffet.

Here they serve Tandoori chicken.

The girls took pic with me when i reached and the bag me holding is from my housemie=)

Eh its the same bday cake MY FAV fruit cake and written JU baby on it. Awwwh love it=)

Hahaha i couldn't blow the candles off cz they pranked me with some funny candles and look at poo's face HAHAHAHA she tried to help me but she looks too funny here.

Poo wanted to have some moments with me so she took me to the poolside and i read the super sweet bday card she wrote for me. It was reli sweet and i wanted to cry.

She merajuk when caryn came to disturb with the camerah.

"gimme a moment la plsssss..." =p

So cute. ;>

Then we left the hotel. Carnations and roses from Winnie.

And went for SECOND round. hehehehe.

Guess what? the owner saw me carrying roses, he came to wish me and gave me a FREE champagne. HAHAHAHA.

Before i could see anything the stopper flew off just like that.=.=

Scary.

Thats all for the nite.

WHAT? U think that's all?
They not gonna let me go and went to buy liquor for THIRD ROUND.

But thank God i slept off if not i dun think i will be alive by now.

I had a great bday cz of my wonderful frens and Joe said he doesn't understand why so many people so sek me and treat me like baby because im not SWEET at all. Thank u sweethearts thx for everything i really appreciate it.P.s everyone, I love the pressies. THank uUuu so muchie.

I lost my BB. But i've gained sumthing too.

2010-02-19T06:52:00.000-08:00

I lost my BB today.
I lost it after calling that stupid SONY CENTRE of India.
They wanted to charge me 16,000 rupees for my hardisk.
This is so freaking ex ok and I DO NOT have a com to use nao.

Then i went to Joe's house to see him cz i din see him the whole day he represented our uni for some Bball tournament.
And sudd i realised my phone wasn't with me, but the earphone was still in my labcoat.

Gosh i must have left it in that auto 3 wheelers when i came back with Max.

I can't take this stress of feeling lost so i called my dad.Not my mum of course cuz i scared la she will say that i am so careless.
Because today my lecturer oso scolded me for being careless because i wasn't careful wen i poured the cast and porosities were everywhere in da cast.
T.T

Today is just another bad day for me.
When i was fixing my cast i heated the metal part of an instruments and without realising it i touched the heated part and burned myself. That is when i started having bad bad bad feeling about my day.
SIGh nvm.

Ok about my daddy,when i heard his voice i was about to cry but i was tahan-ing it..
So he heard and u kno what was the 1st thing he told me>?
I thought he would say that how come i am so careless.

Me : Papa i lost my phone....
Daddy : Aiyoh, nevermind lah papa buy a new 1 for u. U tell me how much i will send u the money.
Me: Papa, sony is charging me 16000 for the laptop, my hardisk spoiled.
Daddy : Oh nvmla..U go and buy a new laptop ok? You tell me how much i will send the money to u.
Me: .......*tearing non-stop, feeling so touched.

I cried so much cz my daddy is so so so so sweet to me. I am sucha bad daughter. I always argue with him, i am always closer to my mum than him, eventho i love them both equally.

Today, eventho i've lost a phone but my Dad made me feel like the luckiest princess in the world.
Oh gosh, I love u daddy.
And Happy birthday to my brother.

I used to think that i still wanna spend my dad's money after i work. But now NONO i wanna give the best to my parents.
*as if la my salary very high.;p

P/s : My phone still ringing maybe drop into dry longkang or sumthing sigh.

Pictahs from my BB

2010-02-09T09:40:00.000-08:00

Finally get to transfer some pics from my phone.

Holding zhu zhu bao from dragon-i. Its actually a taosa bao but i named it zhuzhu bao.

Me & Bren bren. Looks like she has eyeliner on.Dun think i ever get to sleep on this bed anymore the next time i come home.=( will definately miss this feeling.

Was extremely bored in postings cz we came bek 4 days late and the cases are distributed to other batchmates. So had to wait for patients to come. Was so bored so i secretly snapped some pics. The sun shining on my lower face lols.

I'm sucha big kacau i reli kacau here kacau there got nothing to do. This is Joe posing trying to look thin ^^

Max super serious with his work and look at my Mam behind she is so pretty, super fair got smooth skin and class III chin like mine.(protruded chin) I wanted to do genioplasty(i say oni la) to remove some bone of my chin and my fren told me one famous pretty bollywood actress Katrina Kapur oso has the same chin like me. SO i told him OKLAH im not gonna go for any surgery.=p *cheh

We're allowed to wear short sleeve labcoat in Prostho department. And my labcoat is extremely loose cuz i've lost so much of weight due to the stresses during my PartI final exam. I heard that part II is reli very very very scary and u wont even have time to rest goshhh i so can sense it coming!! OK lemme chill for another week 1st. Ignorance is bliss XD
Oh ya btw i passed my partI so im in PartII now. Yesterday a junior congratulated me n he told me i have half a yr left, he repeated around 3 times and it made me so semangated.=) YAYs. Finally i can get out of this place real SOON.
Gosh life here is so bitter, so depressing gosh gosh gosh.

The other day i was bored and hungry and felt like eating some homecook healthy food,so i cooked this kimchi meehoon. It tasted exactly like the chinese sour&spicy soup and wow it was awesome.(why am i praising my cooking skill, pls this is soooo effin easy to cook.) Just add tomato, onion, kimchi of cz and a pinch of salt. and TADAA. slurrrps. Inspired by saeah. Cz i tasted her kimchi soup and decided to cook dis.

Ya again another korean "inspired" dish. I tried to copy the dish a korean aunty cooked for us wen we stayed in that korean guest house in Bangalore. Korean foods are just awesome don't u think so? Many ppl told me they prefer Jap food tho. But i jz love korean food.Btw, this is fried cucumber with dried prawns and tat alcohol u use to cook veg, ya that one.

A must have when u eat korean food. The korean tea=p Saeah gave it to me. I gave her my mee goreng n sum other noodles fr msia too=)

Then finally today i got a case. The intern took the impression and he gave me this cast. I was supposed to make the base and trim it(that white part) I made it on the tiles and argh it stuck to it and i cant pull it out.Goshie so Kepoh Joe came to help me la ryte u know what he did???????
He broke that 3 upper teeth. Sucha brilliant guy=)
Ok probably he is too strong la(just to make u happier)
That 3 teeth are the most important teeth for me to replace the lower missing teeth but SIGH i can't check any occlusion so i reli have to estimate it myself IF it doesnt fit i reli dunno how. Jz have to agak agak arrange it then.

Ok la actually it is a very very simple case i oni have to replace 2 teeth ok. SO little so yeah i just trimmed it and arrange lah.

I held the teeth with my hand when i trimmed it and goshie the bur kept hitting my fingers. and bcz i very kiasi i put it at a low speed n not so painful but my fren told me to stick it on a wax and then trim it, it will be easier n won't hit ur own hand. Yahor, why i never tot of that?
Look lah the Plaster of paris powder on my hand, thats the reason why my hand is super dry and skin are peeling too. Dun shake hand with me ok. My hand is as smooth as a grandma's hand.

Eh actually i'm suppose to get one complete denture(totally bo geh/no teeth) instead of partial denture. Dunno why la i got this ish and HAVE TO be ready by FRIDAY OK. Will take a pic after it is done.

Saeah tied my hair from behind. Seriously if lecturer saw this we'll be sent out of the class. Lols.Looks like korean from bhind ryte? ^^

Ok lah no lah.

Oh no this is extremely stupid I dunno what to say. We cant go to our guy frens house and they can't come to our house either. GOSH.

This is sooooooo creeepy.

2010-02-06T13:51:00.000-08:00

Why we human like to scare ourselve huh?
Went to saeah's house to watch "Living Death" with her and gosh it was reli scary..
The ghost doesn't pop up to the screen but it was quite scary, probably cz it involved some religion issues..(i think those horror movies which involve religion esp christianity is freaking scary)
were covering our eyes with pillows and a blanket on our back..i dunno why but she said so so i followed. =.="
we screamed we hugged each other we jz closed our eyes wen the ghost came out and then we kept asking each other wat happened ^^"

And then yeah...After finish watching ryte i heard a sound from the door..
And u know me lah i thought someone was trying to open her door and her housemate wasn't home(went back to korea i think) and oni we both were in the house.
And this girl, she hugged me and she screamed and we both fell on the bed.
So i called Joe to come.
He came. and he looked around the house. Nothing was there. And he left.

She told me her housemate saw a ghost in da house and made me even more scared. So i kinda tot that that sumthing exist there. ~.~"

After 5 mins.......
Someone rang the doorbell a few times and we freaked out.
We jz kept quiet n i called joe. Thinking that it might be him who was trying to scare us.
But no, it wasn't him.
NO ONE WAS THERE.
She told me yesterday 3am someone rang her doorbell too.

and this time he sat in the house with us.
Felt relieved. Felt so secure having him around.
Then we acc saeah to watch some funny shows so that she will be okay and we left.
Phhewwh. I think i should stop watching it from now on but somehow i love to watch arghh.*smacks

If oni i can catch that person who's trying to scare saeah i will really smack his head 10 thousand times.

Goodbye my friends:)

2010-02-02T10:27:00.000-08:00

Staring at the screen for 5 minutes and i really do not know what to write=)

Yah yes u know, i am going back tomoro. 0.0

I only came back for 10 freaking days.

I was extremely excited to be back cz i've always been waiting for these days to come..

Finally, get to spend some time with my parents and mum reli pampered me so so much. As usual, dad is always busy with his business but he did spare some of his time for me. Pity him, have to wait for us girls wen we shopped.

How do i feel?

I think im quite used to it tho. I know as long as i play my part, i will get to graduate n come back on time. For good:)

Maybe i have changed. Half a year ago, I love partying so blardy much. but now, i feel that life is meaningless doing stuff like that. Even i find it boring to sing K. I prefer working in da hospital, treating patients everyday. I am glad that i love what i am doing ryte now.

Perhaps i dun have someone here who belongs to me completely. Ya i have my parents but i feel realy empty sumtimes when they are busy. I have friends but no one can be with me all the time, ryte? I'm starting to worry that how my life wud be when i come back for good..Do i really wanna work in KL? i really dunno. Perhaps i can be in JB to be with JOE.we've been fighting alot about this, bcuz none of us wanna give up not staying with our parents. and i HATE Jb.=p

Talk about parents, my parents are really very paranoid ok. They will bug n bug n bug me to come home b4 1am. Sumtimes i feel that i have no freedom, i can't do anything i want but I know i will be thankful next time(probably after 10 years) tat they were there to care bout me and control me=p

I think i am more rational now. I started to care more bout my future. I wouldn't want to do anything to hurt my relationship. And i will try not to do anything to hurt my parents too. I think my brain works better than my heart now, i wont follow my heart to do anything i want or say any words i want to hurt them, but try to put it in a nicer way. When ure trying to convey sumthing, isn't it better to say it in a nicer way?

There were certain things dat i thought i can never accept but i accepted it with an open heart. I can face it and smile wen i heard of it. I know that the earth does not revolves around me and I canot be selfish. As long as they are happy, why not? =) That is why now when i see certain people who are so selfish and only think about him/herself, I cannot understand why that they dun even have a heart for others?

And now, I am all ready to go back for the battle. I heard from senior that this half a year will be a lot tougher n challenging. I hope I will have the strength to take this, and hope that i wont be LAZY=)

Goodbye everyone.

Full House @ Sunway Pyramid

2010-02-01T11:08:00.000-08:00

U know what, ya we @sze,yin,dy,hui,zhi + Yun MIA went out together. In other words, 6 sis gathering la. I just realised after i uploaded all the pics i am very very lazy to blog or even rearrange the pics so ENJOY. HAHAHA. will upload the rest in facebook ok JIMUIz.

Don't worry, be happy.

2010-01-31T09:30:00.000-08:00

When u're lost with no direction..

Bren will come and say.. Don't worry be happy.

Hahahaha.

I know i am so lame.

So cute ryte her top.

I'm not used to life like this. I used to have lotsa things to do. And now i feel uneasy having nothing to do but just enjoy life.(in other words WASTE TIME)

and when i go back i will want to come back again sigh!

gosh tonite im so good girl i jz stay at home~!

I just love being pampered by my parents i wna faint ok lah i dun1 2 go back already.

I'll upload the pics wen i go bek k streamyx sux!

I gtg sleep nao tomo goin cheong K.^^

What's wrong with me?

2010-01-25T10:15:00.000-08:00

I'm a lil worried rite now.
I just went down to pat my brenbren and i jz realised that my feelings for her has changed.
Omg she's like da oni pet i love sooooooooo much. SO SO MUCH.
sigh im so sad.

WHY?
I think cz i din see her for long maybe ( this is like da longest time i left home).
I felt reli excited spending time with my mum n dad but not her. Maybe she doesn't gimme much response today. Maybe i was just depressed cz of her behavior. Or maybe the things/person i used to love, i just dun love them as much ryte now.

Including those who abandoned me and took me for granted especially.

My comfort zone

2010-01-25T03:58:00.000-08:00

Hi I'm home=)

Ya but i still can't stay in here yet=p

I just love coming home.

I love my parents' unconditional love, i love msian food, i love my fwens here. I dun wanna go back!!

This is why i love coming home.

My mummy is choooooo sweet. ^^

Slurrrpss. got Dr. Jing Ju engraved on mine.

Anyways im so fat im uzapping my fats n i feel like...going to the toilet.

OK BAI.

FML

2010-01-05T08:01:00.001-08:00

FML. 9days to my finals. Panic like hell but still wasting time here. ARggh. No mood. But i will study!

U..If u think dentistry is easy..It is never easy..I cut my hands about 4-5times in a week and see i cut my finger with stainless steel wire during my exam and it was so blardy painful n i had to continue bending. FML seriously.

Ok my BIRD(sounds wrong) has grown up soooooooooo much=)
Look at the mohawk on da head. its getting more and more mohawk. HAHAKZ.

Compare this with previous pic u can see how much it has grown. Problem is i gave it milo, mountain dews, sprite, cream crackers, egg yolk and all the sampah food which i think is nice. And miraculously it survived!

Look at this mohawk cute rite..Now i duno whether i should let it go! U know what, I tried letting it go ok..i put it outside the balcony twice, it doesn't fly away and it wanted to come in again. It chirped more n more wen i walked pass..such an attention seeker. And sorry for the pictah quality i took it with my BB.

someone please tell me what should i do to this EAGLE/KITE?

P.s : wah not bad i tamed a wild bird.^^

Emo Ju

2009-12-30T08:04:00.000-08:00

Went swimming just now and met one chinese uncle from Malaysia.
He asked me whether i'm here for vacation and it struck me.

How nice if only i am here for vacation.

Why am i here for?

I remember the day when i hugged everyone of u in KLIA happily(some of u were actually crying) but i was too happy with this new journey of my life..Plus my parents are coming with me..So i was actually looking forward to it. And just like that, i came to india. Without thinking twice. I did actually, i got a place in Monash University and daddy promised to buy me a car but i chose india in the end. I dunno why. I just have that passion for dentistry. and till now..i can't even drive. (shame on me.)

Why i choose India?

There is no reason why. I enrolled because most of my SAM's classmates got a place here. And obviously it is not easy to go to UK or Aus bcuz the requirement was super high back then. To get into Melb U the req was 99.95. How in the world a playful person like me can get into that? all i wanted to do was dentistry and i really don't care about anything at all. And because i dunno anything bout India also. I ended up here cz AIMST wasn't recognised by the government yet. and other colleges oso. And now, manipal offered twinning program for the juniors. Grrr =(

Have i ever felt regret coming here?

The answer is definately a NO. But i have to sacrifice alot. I dun come here and pop out with a dentistry cert just like that. I didn't get to spend much time with my parents. My longest break was only 1 and a half month. Sometimes i really envy those who get more than 3 months summer break. ^^

I studied the most here in my whole entire life. It is nothing compared to SPM and SAM. NOTHING AT ALL. I study till i want to vomit..(obviously not as much as the top scorers for example my housemate n sp) But for my standard it can kill me already. And the fats accumulated in my stomach? GOSH i have a tummy cz i sit too much just to study! And the stress i got was definately more than u could imagine. I cried b4 my exams, i cried after my finals..i clenched a lot b4 exams and i have muscle fatigue..my jaws were extremely painful n i had limited mouth opening. Now, my teeth are partially worn off due to my night grinding(cz of stress lah!) and i had to wear a night guard. Which i have no time to fabricate it yet. Actually i am too tired to actually go n get it i need to sleep. Ran here and there to get work completion signature from lecturers and my practical works are very tiring.

And i have experienced so many heartbroken moments when someone can actually choose to give up on me because i'm here, far from malaysia. Who is willing to spend 5 years just to wait for me? I've been treated like that, and i also realised that there is no reason why i have to hold on to someone too.

Friends, i'm afraid and worried bout my friendships with my friends, my sistahs, I sumtimes feel that i have missed out so much and i am unable to cope up with them. Thank GOD they're still loving me right now..There are so much to catch up..
Some friends just drifted away. We all know that in order to maintain the frenship we have to give our precious time to each other..Its not just a one sided thing..both have to really put in the effort.
I dunno if i can ever find someone to have a heart-to-heart talk session with me anymore..Why can't some people be honest? U know i'm not angry or jealous bcuz of that, but why u have to hide so much?

In these years, i've also learned that..
I have to accept people for who they are. I'm truly sorry if i have hurt anyone in the past. I mean it.
I have tone down my temper so so much, I'm just tired of the people here. They used to make me angry but I really do not have that energy to be mad at them anymore. I know Indians here like to cheat my money and i already know how they gonna do it so i just have to be careful with them. But sometimes i just can't help it i will burst.

Had the biggest fight with C in my life and we didn't talk for a year. Some people were batu api-ing between us that is why we don't even wanna talk to each other. Thanks to them. But now, we're so close to each other than u can ever imagine. It is so weird sometimes, din know i will ever talk to her again.I know more n more about her and that is why i have learned how to accept her the way she is. There is always a reason why she behave in certain ways.

Every1 will be telling me that time passes reli fast i am going to graduate soon. But who actually knows that what i have been tru here. Only my batchmates know. Not even my own mother. 4 years hav passed. Things changed. How many tears i shed. I'm sure without Joe here with me..the amount will be triple. God is so good, i'm glad to have sum1 here by myside to go tru all these shits with me.

There is always a reason why God put me away from my comfort zone. Maybe He wants me to learn how to appreciate everything He has given to me, a perfect family, an awesome brother=) I dunno how my brother can grow so fast and he is so much bigger than me now. I used to argue with my mum so much that i dunno how i can actually be so unappreciative last time, and my dad used to stuck in the middle, haha..those were the days..I even ran out of the house and my parents had to call my friends just to look for me. How embarrassing. I never realised how much my parents love me, but now i truly know that everything they do is for my own good. I ring my mum a lot to ask for her advice, about anything, about guys, complain to her when i fight with Joe etc. She is someone that i can trust wholeheartedly, and my dad, every single word he said to me when we had heart-to-heart talk, made me wanna tear, i held it so hard but i find it so so hard to control my emotions. I miss them.

It is tough. But i will have faith, and keep moving.

FURBALL BABY!

2009-12-23T00:03:00.000-08:00

As u already know tru my fb shoutout, I found a birdie lately.
I became so so attach to it as it is extra tame n cute n most of the time it will stand on my index finger just like that, it wont fly or move at all. Saeah said cz it's too fat but i think the mother lost this birdie sumwhere and THANK GOD i found it. If not it would be in a cat's or a dog's stomach now.^^

I named it furball.Not only it looks like a furball from the front..

Even from the top ok..

Curled up to sleep. Can't see the head.

When i study it just stay still like this.=)

Gaya came to visit furball.

There was once i tried to train it to fly n it dropped on the floor..

Heartache ok.

Now im gonna show u how i feed it water. I am an awesome mama=)

天后 - 陈势安

2009-12-20T07:33:00.000-08:00

Absolutely in love with this singer and dis song=)

His voice can melt me..

天后 - 陈势安
词曲：彭学斌

终于找到借口趁着醉意上心头
表达我所有感受
寂寞渐浓沉默留在舞池角落
你说的太少或太多都会让人更惶恐

谁任由谁放纵谁会先让出自由
最后一定总是我
双脚悬空在你冷酷热情间游走
被侵占所有还要笑着接受

我嫉妒你的爱气势如虹
像个人气高居不下的天后
你要的不是我而是一种虚荣
有人疼才显得多么出众

我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容
成全了你万众宠爱的天后
若爱只剩诱惑只剩彼此忍受
别再互相折磨因为我们都有错

推开苍白的手推开苍白的厮守
管你有多么失措
别再叫我心软是最致命的脆弱
我明明都懂却仍拼死效忠

如...果有一天爱不再迷惑
足够去看清所有是非对错
直到那个时候你在我的心中
将不再被歌颂把你当作天后
不会再是我

2009-12-14T09:12:00.000-08:00

You know when i finally finish uploading these pics I AM TOO LAZY TO BLOG EDI!
=.=
Felt nauseated n i hv headache now..GOSH!
Just a small lazy update ok=)

Started swimming cz i think i am very fat. I think i am growing fatter. I think i need to tone up my body. I think my fats are all over the place. I was so paranoid bout it for da past 2 weeks but i just couldnt stop eating!!!!=p So i bought laxative ok, LAXATIVE. i know i was out of my mind. I know i shouldn't try it at all. but i tried it once n i stopped cz i know i shouldn't be taking all these. After few weeks of complaining, WE(all of us think we're fat ok sigh) decided to use a healthier way which is SWIMMING.

I did not swim for like 10thousand years and i can't even swim 1 lab when i 1st started.
And now i am better, can complete only 1 lab.SLAP Me hahahaha.

Caryn in action..

Me n miss caryn camwhoring b4 takin shower.

Somehow someday i persuaded saeah to come with us..They're like my frequently chill-out buddies. LOLs. Breakfast,lunch, dinner & shopping of course=) We don't gossip. I'm serious.

Went for this manipal food fest.

MALAYSIANS!!

Everyone was queuing up for SATAY.

Some chinese kingfu performance..

Souled out haha..

Kaya=p

A stall promoting cuti-cuti Malaysia but no one cares..lols.

Manipal..Inspired by life ok haha.

Got 2 bouquet of flowers.

Then..

When to this new place called THE BLACK CUP.

Me & Poo.

Played with fren's supa dupa cute pupz.
I just couldn't resist them.

Siberian Husky.Ya rite.

So greedy lah this pig.

Cutiessss<3
ME.

Nit & Me.Erhem erhem i want tattoo oso.

Next morning..

NASI LEMAK AS BREAKFAST OF COURSE!
Msians like to have heavy breakfast in early morning, NO?

*****

So yah im eating so much especially when i finish swimming gosh whats the difference huh?
I couldn't resist food too.

Had seafood with my girls after swimming..

Loving my companies here. Gonna cry like hell wen we graduate ok. I WILL OK babies=)

Lastly..

Joe knows that i am so vain he printed a few posters of me to stick on my wall.

BLUEKS.

2009-11-20T11:21:00.001-08:00

I have muscle pain everywhere. I slept so much but still, i feel super tired.
Tot of eating muscle relaxant but i scared i might fall asleep again!
I am cleanching so much nowadays i have jaw pain=(

Anyways posting in Pedo is awesome. I am very happy..i started to like the kids nowadays ^^

Taking Case History..

Oral Examination.

My patient was super paranoid at every instruments i used on him lols. Had to explain to him but too bad he can't und. So me n caryn told him that suction tube is used to drink water in ur mouth DUN be scared. HAHAHA omg..why are we lidat.=.=

If he starts crying thats it ok we had to explain if not i have to stop the treatment.

Musfirah. I can see her passion for Pedo patient!

Fluoride Gel..To prevent dental caries^^

Me n those kids..They are different compared to those spoiled ones who came with their parents.They are so obedient n never cry..made our lives easier. I told him not to drink or rinse with water for at least half an hour he actually listened to me..and only spit out the gel. There was once he walked to the basin so i secretly observed him and he only jz spit it out without rinsing it with water. Sucha good boy=)

Me n my patient. I bought this toothbrush for him cz he said he brushes his teeth with his finger everyday. How sad rite. ^^ Anywayz i left with oni 50rupees with me and after this toothbrush i left 10rupees(80cents lols). Cz i am too too too lazy to withdraw eventhough the atm is so near to my hse.

And now caryn demonstrates the brushing technique..

Me distributing the tiger biscuits we bought for them..

Caryn..

My side profile lols. SO nerdy i know.

Saeah and me.

BEBE n me, Happy birthday^^

Went for lunch at diesel cafe with the girls.

Sp n me. My neighbour..

I can't describe the feelings when i'm with those kids, the way my patient looked at me, i kno he wanted to thank me for buying him toothbrush n snacks but he jz can't express it to me cz he can't speak english. and i cant even und his language. This is sumthing money can't buy, its a once in a life time experience. At that moment i feel so happy, so xin fu. Whenever i think of this, i will smile. They are just so cute and innocent. Sumtimes those very young kids, about 3 years old came to the clinic and the PG will be holding their hands and carry them to the dental chair..and then u have to use ur brain to bluff them lols cz they are too young to understand anything yet.

Kids are so adorable^^

2009-11-17T02:19:00.000-08:00

Saw a chicken shop today, stopped by to buy chicken cz due to the strict security in my apartment, i still hav to go down to collect the chicken even if they give free delivery so i rather buy it on the way back..BUT...

The moment i asked:"chicken?"
they opened the door n i saw all the white hens all tied up on the floor..They're still alive and i really do not have the heart to select them by my own n kill them..

We ended up not buying it cz even if i buy it i wont cook it. I WONT EVEN EAT IT.

I asked the owner of the shop do they sell small baby chick instead, n he showed me some weird face and said NO.

LOLs.

BABY CHICKS ARE SO CUTE ALRITE. I can keep them as my pet since i cant rear a dog here.
Few days ago was children's day so we made dis. SO free ok who's gonna come to a dental clinic on children's day.
I colored the fist and da face n eyes n hair n sum stars and tat "A" on the shirt..^^

Then if u kno me well i ALWAIZ like to break the rules u know=) Life is short so why muz we alwaiz alwaiz follow the rules rite? As long as we're happy n we din do sumthing which is TOO MUCH so i guess its FINE. YEAH my posting starts at 930 and i went ard 1045 today.I openly walked in(as if i did nothing wrong) and seriously..The HOD saw me but i pretended to be my friends' assitant..i helped them to write their case sheet n all.=p KAKAKA. I looked really sleepy wen i walked in but thank god she din catch me cz i din bring my bag=p i was holding my text book tats all.(Don't judge me ok)

Every1 was busy. Sisters were busy interpreting too. Cz all the Pedo patients were from government school they can't speak english.

So i jz walked around observing n helpin so that i could learn sumthing too.

After the treatment we will buy them some snacks so that they'll be happy. (they were really happy, just one packet of tiger biscuit can satisfy them, unlike those spoiled children in Msia who demand so so so much) I am talking bout myself oso lah hehe.So many of them i wanted to faint.

They trying to pose while im taking pic..and was touching my darling BB to see their pic grrrr.
They're very naughty they kept adjusting the lights on da dental chair.=.=
I dun think i can handle them.
My previous patient closed her mouth wen i wanted to take the impression. My lecturer saw and he shouted at my patient. I was shocked cz he used to be so soft all da time.

And i did hair spa..
My hair super straight n smooth now and SHINY too.

Ok u know what i have to go library now. I will probably sleep off if i stay in my room. And i dun und why do i blog so much rite b4 exam.

I kissed a girl.

2009-11-15T10:50:00.001-08:00

It's a SIN.
Please do not try this at home.
^^
I sometimes suspect that i am a BI. But i know i am not. I get attracted to girls easily :)

I am not that daring...YET.

My mummy is sick. I guess i should stop bugging her life from now on. Lols. I told the ID that i wanted a princess bed and she said i have to talk to my parents cz they will have to design it with a recess ceiling and my mum doesn't like it CAUSE..
She is worried about dust..and...LIZARDS.
hahahaha.

Today i called her to ask whether she has send me the stuff i wanted.
Mum : I bought ur panties for u already.
Me : Yay. Thank you.
Mum : I couldn't find what u wanted so i bought u G-strings.
Me : Huh? WHY? I seldom wear G-string mummy.
Mum : Nvm-lah.I bought u hello kitty panties oso. Cz i duno what u want.
Me :*sweat

At least she knows i love hello kitty.

I called her to kek her intentionally. I told her i dun wanna be a dentist after i graduate. I wanna work in dad's company n be a receptionist. hahaha.
She said my dad will faint first^^

I have sleep disorders again.
I wont be able to sleep at nite. Probably worry too much about my exams but not like i am studyin much. GOSH.

I gtg study!!!
Bai bai. Tell bren bren i miss her please.
Naughty girl signing out.

P/s : my parents are so sweet to me I wanna grad fast and i wna giv them the best i could^^ Hopefully i can do it.

夜深人静时。。

2009-11-11T14:24:00.000-08:00

嗨，又是我经过一百年后才update！！
Thank you sze & yun for da comments i just saw it=)
很感谢姐妹们一直在相伴。。给于我精神上的支持啦，逗我开心啦，我假期的时候陪我啦。。
说真的，这么多年以来。。真的没有人可以代替你们。。希望也没人可以代替我okay.

不知不觉，我还要半年就要毕业了。。
可是你们知道吗。。在这里的日子实在世不好过。。
Lecturer 为难我，每天躲在房里苦读（没有啦，有时候看tvb drama lah), 不能穿miniskirt(Joe最高兴）其实可以啦不过我讨厌别人一直看我的腿，不能每天见到爸爸妈妈，只能在webcam看brenbren, 没有出去club(我不够别人野，容不进那圈子）, 没有得每天shopping..
好了啦，其实我不是那种会可怜自己的人。。虽然朋友有教过我，说装可怜可以让父母心痛。。
可是还是cannot make it, this is so not me^^

我真的是迫不及待想要毕业，想回家跟爸妈在一起。。
可是我开始害怕了。。我会想说，自己赚的，够用吗？不止是给自己而已，还有爸妈呢？虽然说他们也不需要我来养，可是也要给一个意思的okay.
我很坏，我开始demand爸妈买东西给我，因为怕以后自己买不起okay,而且工作了怎么可以伸手拿钱。。如果妈妈说要考虑/问爸爸。。我就开始用一大堆苦肉计。。什么方法都用。。可是有时我很奇怪，when she says YES 我就不想要了。。

还有很过分ok..我的新房间，这么快就要finalize了，也没真正的问我的意见。。妈妈就叫interior designer 画多一点drawers&compartments so that 以后我的房间不会乱，东西可以全部堆在里面。。hmph! 我现在就一再反对，然后改改改。。呵呵呵

这是本来的图。。我不喜欢。。
而且因为房间分成一排有三间，我的房变得好小（真是很会complain)..
妈妈说他不喜欢住太大的屋子，会很寂寞。。然后呢我的弟弟常常不在家。。
然后呢，我就好自私的说我会霸占中间的房。。虽然爸爸不愿打通要做为guestroom。。可是我已经有自己的策划了。。哈哈哈。。
如果客人来，睡楼下的extraroom算了！！0.0

哇和，我真的type了很久。。重点都还没说。。
对，我要毕业了。。
真是无法置信。。
听说工资是3800,那我一定死都粘着家里。。
呜。。好穷。。

Pedo

2009-10-30T00:40:00.001-07:00

Hie its me again...updating after one thousand years.
^^

I am posted in pedodontics again=) Everyday i hear children crying. I feel very tired lookin at them. I jz stared at them duno wat to do. In fact i am quite scared of them. Especially when they cry. Normally we don't force the kids to do any dental treatments if they are crying because if we do this they won't wanna visit dentist for their entire life anymore.

So postgraduate will take the tough cases n for us students we oni take those easier case or older children^^

They are my batchmates, there are 11 of us. Normally we jz sit in the seminar room and wait for our turn to treat patient.

One fine day...
Saeah brought a korean ghost movie and we started watching.(We bring laptop cz we have seminar)

And lecturer came in and snatched the laptop and made all of us stand n watch cases outside.And she said we canot sit WTH! Ok i kno we supposed to watch the case but i had backache after tat=(

This is me camwhoring and see caryn using her handphone. If get caught have to pay rm25 ok. lols. I alwaiz sms or call my mum to bug her too.

I have pimple on my nose. 1st time in my final year ahhh i appreciate it. Ok im jz kidding. I sang Rudolph the red nose raindeer to myself.

And in clinic wen i have nothing to do i usually look at the mirror =p And I noticed that i have pigmentation OMG omg omg omg! i was so panic so i bug my mum again. She said she will send me a soap which cost rm70 i duno what isit. Hopefully it will work PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! Ahhh how how how i kept tellin saeah jz now she said she can't see anything i think she wanna slap me haha.

Then all of a sudden i had to take case. i was not ready at all(so many ppl bunked today so i had to take!!!) and i dun even have my airotor with me. Ok den i did a restoration on this 5 year old girl and her tongue was so strong...SO DAMN STRONG can push my mouth mirror away! gosh. I was quite nervous but still I did it=> after the restoration sir told me to extract 2 grossly decayed teeth n i was shocked cz no one in my batch did extraction (if im not wrong). and..I DID IT :D I was telling my mum jz now while she was eating ice-cream dat the teeth stuck to the gum and hanging that sir told me to jz pull it out..and my mum almost puked.

And every pedo patients they call them BABY. I saw it in my patient's file - Baby Nandana..
Hehehe..Baby Teh Jing Ju. So cute rite to put baby infront. hehehe.

Actually kids are quite cute=) i used to feel scared but after this 1st time treating them im feeling more confident now. Especially wen they move here n there its quite fun..Challenging^^

2009-10-20T10:51:00.000-07:00

I am so tired today.
Slept off in lecture class.
Slept off during my yoga.
GOSH.

Then had small eating session together with my batchmates.
Screamed so much while viewing Gmarket with saeah.

Saw this pink hair straightener in ebay n i love it so much. <3

its in baby pink awhh. Kept viewing it again n again cz the shipping is tooo ex.

Went to hair saloon to straighten n cut my fringe today=)
Surprisingly da owner was supa good. I was praying nonstop wen she cut my hair lols.

And went for restoration during my postings since i was so free.
Omg i tell u i was traumatized and i dun think i ever wanna see a dentist anymore=(
He is so so rough ok eventho he made a good restoration and fast but i couldnt take it..
His way of doing it was totally opposite of mine. I will try nt to cause any discomfort to my patients. but..
I had so much pain.
I wanted to cry ok. wth=p
I hate da sound of airoter now.
Now i understand why u guys hate seeing a dentist.

Happy Deepavali

2009-10-17T12:37:00.001-07:00

Happy Deepavali =)

Its a holiday so we decided to go Manipal to eat.
Since i am so bored of Bangalore.
Sigh. Why cant we have longer hols so that i can go Mumbai or New Delhi or HOME!
Ya my Pig housemate actually tempted me to go home on friday night but u know rite last min of cz they'll jack up da price. So yeah.

On da way..

Max..

Joe =)

Since we were all craving for nasi lemak so we went for it 1st.

I am so hungry now. T.T

Went shopping but bought NOTHING.

Den went to cafeteria.

My hsemate bought Subway.

Me n my teh tarik.

Max's mee goreng..How to finish la..gosh..

My meehoon soup. Taste like my mum's cookin bt bit salty..

Manipal campus.

I am so jealous. Why my campus in Mangalore is like SHIT uh? NOT FAIR!

Then went shopping again..

OMG so many beggars nowadays trying to chase me.Got irritated.

Den went to da hotel to chill for while..

Max+Joe's drinks.

Me n my hsemate had baileys. I love my barbie pink nails.
I cant keep long nails since i have to treat patients everyday.T.T sobs.

As usual feelin sleepy after drinking..

Alah no cute guys.

Then went for dinner..

Curry mee.

Fried stingray..supa spicy..i tot its ikan bakar so i ordered!

Saw sum ppl playin fireworks so butt itchy went to buy.

Fought with the taxi company cuz one worker there try to cheat our money.
Spoiled our fireworks mood ok.

Bought this super long bunga api.

I was super scared ok. what if the stick turns too hot n burn my hand rite..?

See i told u i was very scared. So wen it was burning half way i threw it. Lols.

Then my hsemie held it for me.

Max opening da firecrackers. Supposed to have 25shots but oni 3 came out. SO obvious this is old stock ok CHEATER!!!! ish.

OR maybe...

We not suppose to tear of that paper..

Haha. freaking 3 shots oni k waste my money.

Firecrackers = burn money.

Then went back to our apartments.

My neighbour's house. My hsemate said lets bluff people tat this is our house T.T

Outside my apartment=p Not gonna let u kno my house no.

Tata.

Happy Deepavali.

Sighs.

2009-10-14T00:43:00.000-07:00

Its getting harder n harder to pass my exam. I know. Because i didn't put much effort.
Its getting harder n harder to please my lecturer. She thinks i am always not serious. She thinks that i don't study much(which is quite true but not for this week). The reason she thinks that i am like that because i always smile. Isit wrong to smile?

Sigh.

I don't understand the people here. Why muz i look serious? I canot look serious. I don't think i can do it now. Even in the future i can't.
I smile a lot i know. This is me i can't stop smiling.

Sigh.

Wth rite?!

Anyways i feel so bad that today i dropped the radiograph while developing in the tank. Ran to the assistant but she said so what? nothing can be done.(SO effin mean)
I ran to the PG he tried helping me but couldnt get it cuz was too deep n yeah my patient had to retake. Feel so bad now.

Sigh.

Another thing quarreled with one unreasonable person who made me study the wrong thing today for my viva n don't even wanna apologize but raised his stupid voice at me..I was really pissed i wanna slap his fat face seriously i dun und why he always like to step on me n bully me.

I should start studying soon..
Yeah..after deepavali ok...

X-rays.

2009-09-16T13:40:00.001-07:00

I do not know why I always like to blog before exam(i suppose to utilize my time properly rite =.=)

Ok i'm now posted in Deparment of Oral Medicine & Radiology.

U know rite i am super paranoid with this invisible X-radiation and now i have to work in X-ray room. Wuuu T.T And again we have to take 2 radiographs on each other OMG our batch actually had some probs cz i didn't wanna let them take radiograph on me.

I told my fren to steal my previous radiograph taken due to tat stupid dentist and then another one i have to let them take. No choice X(

Me infront of the PID. Wearing lead apron. I am so kiasi i wore double layer. The blue one is da small one for kids and i actually wore it=p HAHAHA. Double protection ok.

And then because i am so thin & small (my lec said one ok,i don't think so) so my exposure time is da same as chilren. hohoho.

After u position the PID properly, u have to click start and THEN u will hear this Teet... teet ...teet...sound coming out from the machine and it reli made all of us scared. (sounds lk some bomb going to explode). So we have to run fast to the back of this lead wall and press this thing.

Yeah we ran reli fast jz to press this. -.-' den x-ray will be taken after u press this. And u wont be exposed to da X-ray. (juz minimal amount)

This is a small machine to produce the film BUT we're not allowed to use this. We HAVE TO manually process it. Sobs. I bugged the lab technician so many times so tat i can use this.=*(

Film Holder.

Omg i jz rmb i lost one film holder im so dead. The lab technician kept bugging me almost everyday. OK I found it n gonna return it tomo.

So we kinda dipped da film in sum solutions in da dark room. We have to off da light so dark n romantic too bad my romeo not here with me.

Me interpreting the radiograph.

why do i always look so ugly in clinic. Please ignore my face. Omg i look like rabbit here. Wabbit.

Saeah.

Me & caryn.

I'm having sorethroat now. Went to take X-ray(omg again) on this PNS view to check my for my Sinus. 640miliampere. whereas my dental radiograph was only 7 miliampere. And i took blood test(3tubes of blood) OMG stupid it was soooo blardy painful i wanted to cry(i'm serious) but i kno if i cry every1 will start staring at me.
I gotta be strong rite i am a big girl already.
But..
I don't wanna grow up. *sobs*

Ok i gtg study now.=(
SO SLEEPY! zzz.

Personality Test

2009-09-16T00:54:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.(Hmm..sometimes :> )

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people.(Very very true) You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style.(Yup yup!!!) This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own. (Yes i wanna earn my own $$$)

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. (YEAP YEAP)

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. (Exactly)Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable,(No im not i am very unreasonable) honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-09-07T05:56:00.000-07:00

HI. ^^

Urgghh. Exam in 10 days time. Stress like hell.
Srsly i can cry jz by staring at the amount of portion i have to cover.
God save me=(

OK i used to think my life sux here but i saw a blind patient outside da hospital trying to open his umbrella under the rain. Damn sad. It was reli reli sad to see that. Ok i am happy with my life now I should jz shut up n stop complaning.

Ok jz a short update ere how me n poo make our lives interesting with da others(jeremy, max, joe, puvan & gaya). da pics are taken with my phone so not gonna post da rest. The quality sux=p

OK they have more pictures of me doing stupid thgs but im nt gonna allow them to post it.=p
ANd also i found this pic in my com..

i miss my old lappie.

T.T

The mother board spoiled.

Dis my vaio new baby but still i love my toshiba more=)

STUPIDEST DENTIST

2009-09-04T00:07:00.000-07:00

Omg i am fuckin pissed at this stupid dentist.

HE is the stupidest dentist i've ever seen in my whole entire life. SRSLY.

I have sensitivity on my molar and i kno this is because of my sealant. It is underfilled. U know wen they dun cover ur whole cavity u get that sensitivity wen u consume supa sweet or cold food.

So i went to da department since i am so free while other people are having their exam plus i have no patient today so i tot of getting it filled again. I went with Saeah and we then told this smart sir our problems and he sent this INTERN or postgraduate I do not effing know who the hell he is. He checked saeah 1st n from what he said i tot HIS DIAGNOSIS WAS SO EFFIN STUPID. n i can see that he duno a lot of things. STUPID. Even if u dun study much in ur theories at least open ur eyes and seeeeeee my teeth properly. SEEEEE and OBSERVE asshole. He is so blardy ego and he din wanna listen to me. I SAID UNDERFILLED RITE. I kno myself i can feel it with my tongue and i jz got it done 2 mths ago after the sealant it was fine and now it chipped off. OMG. u kno like any other typical indians he was jz too ego and he said NO PROBLEM.there is nothing like that. the filling is FINE. SO he doesnt wanna listen to me.

So he told sir that my amalgam filling(dat silver color one) is too old and has ditching. I mean how does that related to this amalgam I AM TALKING BOUT MY SEALANT. there the white color thang u put on ur grooves to prevent caries. It is underfilled. This simple. And he said there is a catch there on my tooth(normally if there is a catch there is caries). ok fine so my this smart sir stood there and asked him what happened to my poor little tooth and he jz roughly showed him on da mouth mirror. OF cuz he cant see n he wont see rite he supposed to supervise all of u. So he pressed on my cheeks to check whether i have sinus problem which i had. And it is more painful on da same side of my tooth. So he adviced me to take a radiograph.

HAHA. guess what after i took da radiograph there is no CLASS 2 caries or any caries like wat he said. Sir finally took da gloves n used his precious hand to check for me, and he said its UNDERFILLED.

SO I FUCKING TOOK A RADIOGRAPH FOR NOTHING.

OMG DUN U KNO X-ray is SO HARMFUL.

AND U FUCKING WASTE A RADIOGRAPH JZ LIKE TAT.(cz i got if for free)

STUPID.

IF i get cancer how HUH HUH HUH?
I HOPE U GET (nt cancer) UTI TODAY. UTI - urinary tract infection.
I HOPE U FUCKING GET IT. DUMBO.
U called urself a doctor?
SO what if i am 1 or 2 years younger than u.
I can diagnose better than u.

My problem is this simple. Bcause my cavity is underfilled. Dentinal tubules is exposed. So there will be sensitivity. GOT IT?

and u fucking did cold test on me NOW MY TOOTH FEELS PAIN. GOT SENSITIVITY OK.

DUMB.

I HOPE U READ THIS.

Dental Camp

2009-08-18T11:42:00.000-07:00

Hi guys=p Im back in India.
And guess what omgg my lecturer sent us for this dental camp at a place called Lady Hill to give free dental treatment.

Now our uni has this NEW mobile dental bus=p

YAYS^^V

This is da seat.Oh ya and that is CARYN.

These are da dental chairs and equipments.

Mini Ac^^

Camwhores=p

Me da bus driver. Lol.

Pedo patients.

Caryn, Me & Saeah.

Me treating patient.

Me.

And caryn found this OMGosh so gross.

Thats all for now^^

Every tooth in a man's head is more valuable than a diamond.

Oh yeah i upgraded my internet speed its a lot faster now.YESH!

2009-07-25T20:16:00.000-07:00

I was staring at the monitor for more than 10minutes dunno how should i start this. I type and erase and type again.

Seriously. I trust people too easily.
Or maybe i was jz too naive to think that people who are nice are really nice people from inside out.
HAHA..what did i do to deserve this..??

Do u judge someone based on their past? Because i don't. So i expected u not to.

U told me bad stuff about ur friends..I listen but i don't judge them bcuz i think..every1 deserves a second chance.

U told me not to trust someone..I take precautions but i still choose to believe what i see & feel.

I don't blame u because you don't know me well enough..I chose not to listen to what others say and i defended U but look who is da 2 headed snake...?

Why do i talk bout it infront of u when u're sleeping? Because i am not afraid of anything, I know U can hear it.

I don't mention bout my past because WHO LIVES IN THE PAST? Why do u expect me to report everything to you?

And what did i do in the past that makes u think that I cannot be trusted? It's ok if u feel this way but who gives u the right to tell others not to trust me??

Go ahead and mention to me what did i do. Because i am not afraid of anything. Just ask me directly I WILL admit if i did something wrong in the past OK.

I cannot be abnormal because I AM STRAIGHT.

Did i do anything IMMORAL infront of U? I did not.

Why bother asking me out if u think i am not trustable? Why are u so sweet to me then? Why bother protecting me??

When i look at u i went speechless. Thanks to u i've learned something. Thanks to u i found someone trustable today.

God bless U.

Well, everything happened for a reason i guess^^

Small updates.

2009-07-19T22:24:00.000-07:00

wohoo i am loving my new baby - BB curve javelin 8900.

Ok this will be a short blog post cz im very lazy rite now. Oh ya the other day i bought this short pants which is imported fr korea so i mengadalah i tried to walk lk a model and then BANG i hit da chair woah so painful=p

Went to paparich with sistahs=)

Sze, Me & Dy

Us with dy's sis.Where is hui and yun. Oh ya i went to yin's hse today and i saw YUN wah super happy^^ Was hugging her like a baby.

Dy & Yvonne.

Ju & Sze. Twinnies.

Me.

YUmmm~

Went to zouk for that BEP4play thingie.

Nigel, Yin, Kim,Me,Shaun,Michelle & erm i duno his name.

Our frequent drinking place@the curve - Bondi beach bar.

My fav cocktail for now - Pina Colada. I told them it was tasteless and they added bacardi lemon for me. Can die if i down it.

I see her almost everyday gosh. she's like my lover now.

Kim & me. Im out with her everyday. Seriously everyday. I duno why and we kinda pakat to wear miniskirt together=p

KS, Me, Kim.

@nando's

Sat & Sun are my family day=) In daddy's car.

Hmmmm there are many more pics but i look bad or im too lazy to upload so ya check out my facebook Ok. And happy belated bday SUPHING mei nu SOOOOOO sowee i din wish u i was in Singapore.

Have a great day everyone!

Zouk (Sat nite)

2009-07-07T07:21:00.000-07:00

Yes i am going for Black Eye Peas - The E.N.D album launch party [4play@zouk] this thursday=) yays.

Sepang Gold Coast

2009-07-05T10:29:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh i am soooo blardy in love with all these pics.
So nice taken by DSLR cammie^^

Me. Look fat tho. sigh.

Sze. i love her hairstyle.

Kim. Supa sweet girl.

Yin. So nice this pic.

Marshella the hot chiq.

Jelly fish.

This is the baby. Just now that one was the mother. HAHA i am so childish.

Red & white wine.

3Sistahs

So wugly.

The following few pics taken by my canon IXUS 85IS 10.0 mega pixel.(so not nice compared to those pics sobs)

Again these are awesome pic taken by awsome camerah!

Nigel dancing. lols.

Beautiful sunset.

Group pic b4 we left.

In da washroom cleaning up=>

Ok bye. Hope u enjoy da pic.

2009-06-30T15:19:00.000-07:00

Omg. I am so blardy hungry rite now. I am waiting for my mum to wake up. I wanna bug sum1 to bring me for KFC bt i think that person will probably gimme a punch on my face. My bro is not at home. Da last holiday we went for KFC at 4am. And i was awake fr 330am till now SOBS.I am so so so hungry omg. I slept at 1015pm ytd nite tats why i cant sleep anymore. I used to sleep for 4 hours then wake up to study back in India tats why now i couldn't sleep for long U__U

OK listen ok. I have completely recovered. SO...feel free to ask me out. yays ^^v

(my self-quarantine period is O-V-E-R)

Ok lemme blog bout wat i've been doing for da past few days. Been hanging out with parents at my new hse area..Went to one restaurant " Little Ben" (din tk any pic)..their panmee is handmade plus da soup is ori ok ori no MSG added woah super yummyyyyy. Can drink all da soup safely so sweet.Den went for sushi (ate so much n i hav indigestion cz of that) and herbal fish at puchong(dun reli lk it), n mummy da pao charsiew rice for me. Den at nite onwards i was sick huhu so i couldnt eat anything..i kept sleeping n i ate oni few mouth of food den i started to feel nauseated n went to sleep again.

ISh mum dapao bakuteh for me n cz i was sick n my MAID ate it. HOW LUCKY T_T

Ok now i am craving for bakuteh. Saw my dad at 6am this morning...

Me: Papa, lets eat bakuteh.(cz my dad super love bakuteh n my mum wont let him eat unless i wna eat)

Dad : I have seminar. Nxt time kay.

Then he went bek to sleep. SOBS....

I AM SO HUNGRY.

I dun wna wake my mum up so early if she doesn't hav enuff sleep she'll have migraine for da whole day. OH lord n i cant drive sumo.

When i had fever, my mum actually tot they will quarantine me and she went to the fridge to check whether we have enough food for 1 week ok. She tot every1 in my family will kena so she was prepared for it wtf hahaha.

Ok i woke my mum up and guess what she said she is late for her some line dancing so she cudnt bring me!!!

She sumore asked me why my life so terbalik compared to others when i told her i woke up at 330am!

Den i walked out of her room saying that i am dying..i am going to die of hunger. Den daddy asked my mum to bring me but she was jz lying down on da bed n give no response.

and my dad offered to bring me to dapao my KFC oh yay. so nice.

Den wtf the KFC in Taipan is not 24hours lk da ss15 ones. =.=

den my dad said he'll accompany me for breakfast yay. Wanted Kopitiam but everything was closed so we ate in coffee shop. I ate a few mouth of my dad's prawn mee n my whole wanton mee, plus i bought 1 papaya and watermelon OMGosh im so full rite now T__T i still have 1 papaya with me i am going to fin it now bye.

and here are some pics of me at ecoparadise...I think this will be my most frequent hangout place with parents for this holiday.My mum esp she will go everyday cz she paid rm400++ for this, n my dad too but he doesnt care. My dad is too vain i duno wat kinda perfume he bot which cost him rm600+(some limited edition) and his clothes n pants are piling up and now they conquered my wardrobe. grrrrr. and now i only can fold all my clothes n put them on da table, and hang my dress on some pathetic standing hanger. GERAM.

ok enjoy the pics.

Me in my yukata. Before.

It was 8am so i look slpy here n my dried lips cz i was sick.We ajak dad to come together but he reached here at 730 n left b4 we even started.

My mama. hahaha.

Me. my mum told me nt to look down on this thg. 1 "bed"(she called it bed lah) cost rm100k. I was lk wth wat is this who wants to put this in their house. and my mum said 2 person did. I guess they r reli reli rich n their hse muz be very spacious den. *salute

After.

After the session they will giv u a small glass of enzyme which taste supa good. My mum told me we can buy dat pail to ferment it ourselves. And that pail which looks lk a normal rm10 pail to me cost rm159. O.O nonid la then.

I can't feel the difference yet but my mum said her migraine has reduced so much n her skin is better n so radiant (ya this is why i am here for..) rite now compared to last time.So i think i'll give it a try.=>

H1N1

2009-06-29T12:44:00.000-07:00

Hello lengchais n lengluis=)
As u all know..I AM BACK!!

But i am not well..I have fever n generalised weakness..
I know many of u called my mum n left msgs..But i am jz too weak to respond to any of them..
Sry but i think its better that we meet up after a few days..(u scared of h1n1 a not?)

Guess what..I went to the clinic..the doctor was scared of me after i described my symptom to him(how mean)..he asked me to go for this H1N1 test in University Hospital. And yaya i saw this booth for this virus test outside their trauma n emergency unit..so i waited there. And guess what? they finished their forms. I had to wait n wait n wait for them to get the forms. While waiting i sweat so much that my body temperature came down to normal(oh god)..So when they checked my temperature it was normal so i had to go back!!!!!! GRRrr. It was jz a blardy swab test they cant even do it for me. They asked me to go home, drink more water and rest. The doctor told me " IT MIGHT DEVELOP LATER" . OK thats it.
So u call this U're trying to prevent it from spreading?
you sent me home without doing anything ok. NOTHING.

Another thing i went for this Ecoparadise thing with my mum n dad..which was hmm sum anti-oxidant therapy..maybe i develop side effect from this..MAYBE...
But i am better now...I hope i will be fine real soon. I still feel very weak. Seriously kept sleeping for these 2 days...

Anywayz i gtg rest now....Sry peeps i cant meet up with u guys yet..gimme 2 days ok mwahs. Tata.

P/s: i was very geram cz my maid wore my roxy sleeper to bath my dog,wash car,throw rubbish and it has become a chaplang slipper rite now..color all faded ishhhhhhhh.

2009-06-24T06:33:00.000-07:00

UrgghhHH!!!
My brain is not functioning anymore.

I had less than 10 hours sleep for the past 2 days due to my finals. Was sooooo blardy much da portion cant even finish revising it. I felt so not worth it cz i couldn't remember everything i studied. N sum even look lk a total new thing to me AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. N u kno when i use my speed of light to read as fast as i could everything was mixed up. Haha. Great. Awesomeness.

Anyways, bout my brainy...I can't think properly..i dun even have a normal person's reflex action ok. I borrowed a stethoscope from my housemie today for my medicine clinicals exam and guess what? I left it there. Gosh. I went back to the hospital but i couldn't find it.

My housemie has Oral patho exam tomoro(which i dun have) and she came and asked if she could borrow my H n E pencil to draw microscopic diagram n guess wat i told her? I told her that i only have 2 sets sorry. Den soon after that i realized...that i dun even have exam tomoro why cant i borrow her...since she borrowed me her stethoscope which i already lost it. Sigh sum1 plsss plss give it back to me OMG i duno how am i going to explain to the owner now.

Nxt thing is i thought i lost my pencil case. I put my student card in there n so i was so blardy panic n then Joe called me to tell me that it was in his bag.

Seriously my brain reli not functioning well OMG n today i had a bronchial asthma patient. Luckily my diagnosis was correct.

Fuh imagine while i study every seconds i was reli tempted to close my eyes. I do all kinda thing to make myself stay awake n the worst thing is i canot drink coffee. I will have palpitations n then i will feel hungry if i dun eat i will have gastric.

Lack of rest reli make ur body goes haywire. srsly.

Finalssss.

2009-06-06T22:35:00.000-07:00

12 days to my finals....
All i did was jz sleep eat study sleep eat study sleeeppp grrrrrrr! and online of cuz.
I'm so sked okie.

Me just woke up.

With colors.

Anyways I hope everything will remain the same when i go back. Bbyun never fails to comfort me and assure me bout everything . Thx babe.

Hope i can pass my exam! gonna start studying again.

Those were the days..

2009-05-31T11:47:00.000-07:00

Yeah i am supposed to be studying but again i get all excited with sp about RON NG. *erhem. He is now officially our fav actor in tvb. It has been sucha long time since i last fantasized bout any celebs. I rmb I last did it with Bbyun bout *erhem F4 how lame!! i know!!

Charming.

Sp actually came n ring my doorbell the other day jz bcuz she wanted to tell me sumthing bout RON. And then today i got all excited showing her bout my ex(cz one of them look lk jerry yan OMG, but unfortunately now not anymore)

Then i came across my testi page n wah all da testimonials(quite kiddish) made me fly~ lols. I rmb how much we seven sis used to love each other..I am amazed at how our frenship still last till now...omg let me paste some of it here.=) Cant find yihui's one tho..

From wendy:

ohh...thiS is my GirL girl oh..ya...we LoVe to go ShoppIng *shoppinG quEen*neXt time don't mask ur EyE bRoWn ok?! Later i laugh until my mask crack agaiN...AikS...the mask pic is speciaL mer...When u wan to go shoppinG again??hehehehe....must hav enuFf bullet$$!!ya..pInk ...pInk,,,we LOvE pinkY~~ muackSS~~chEeRSss...(-0-.)

TEH JING JU ~~my BESt friend~~......i used to call her juuuuu.........ahahha 1 of my shopping kaki...we know each other since form1 but we dun talk much...put a long story short SHOPPING bring us 2gether..agree jing ju??we r **shOpping Queen**..many ppl say she looks like japanese!erm...she pretty but a bit fierce oh..so watch up ya!! L0vE U gUrl~~~i will always b at ur side!!CheerSSsssssssssssssssssss

-Make sure u will alwaiz be at my side. Dun ever take my pic when i mask my face. N we never changed. we still love pink so much.

By Sze :
05/03/2004 10:46 pm
weEEeEeeEE!!!!hahaahahahaha....dark dark ju!!! *bluekz*

-After u came bek fr NS u supa dark oso okay hohohoho.

From Bbyun:

ju...=))a dear dear sIs of mine...as well as my les n fightin partner uhh..=)) shes reEally a sWweeetheart man...she can simply melt everyone's heart with her smile...sOo innocent...!!!wert a iNnocent babie she is uh...!!!=)but please everyone...deep down inside her soul's SUPER SUPER CRAZZEEEEE!!!!ju's always drivin me crazzee!!!!my goodness..dont be surprised when u are demanded to fight with her or maybe piak piak her...she enjoys that!!!lol!!still rem we squatted down like wert only just to play that crazzee game!!!fightin with each other...wert vincent said uhh..ahahahh...mad mann!!but i truly enjoyed that...=ppp i can never stay calm when im with her...she would probably ask me to play with all her pretty unique games...but fer sure,ull ENJOY it..!!!wahahhahaha...!!yaya..one thing i admire her's whenever u are cryin...she can definately make u stop usin' her EXTRA unique style of way...she do cares fer us n of coz her sweet darlin julian,always be there fer us..=)shes an angel indeed...=) this sweetie's one true fren that can really make ur life complete...and da one who makes our friendship eXtra
ordinary...!!!i do value our relationship...=)rem...werts mushroom head..??=))ahpoh yun n ahpoh ju uh..=pp..LOL!~ nway,yun still loves u gurl...=)..take care! *huGgZZz n kiSseS* =*

-OMGosh she's sucha sweetheart=) I din kno i was so SM. Even you bbyun!

From Yin:

dEaRiE jU...i miss our RADIO STATION n those crazy stuff we did last time...heheheh...we hav sOoO much fun n kept laughing n laughing until stomach-ache...dunno y we like to lepak around Taipan n USJ 9...n stay in Big Bookshop for a long time...hahahah...we change it's name to Big Backside rite...haihzzz...2 silly gurl like to fool around... hehehheh...glad to noe u gurl n b my dearie sis...hope dat we can still remain our frendship k...if i study in taylor's then we can meet each other d...muz take good care of urself n drink more water k...muaksSs =pp

- I miss those times together. We did so many silly things together!

By Zhi:

ju ju.......dun be so ham sap ler......pull my bra strap.........=pp....

wow..u so fast gotta the second acc edi....seems that u got many fans hor....hehe=p....anyways..ju is a pretty..cute ....soft....n notty gal......muz keep on eye on this gal hor...haha.....ji muiz forever...!!

-Zhi is da hamsap girl!

From Hammie:

Juuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!! hahaha my XING GAN classmate.... ; P hmmmmmm.... this girl arrrrrr some says look like szeee veryyyyyyyyy much!! but i dont think so.... hahahaha.... even moral teacher said that today... she said u looks like szeeee alot but u looked more SWEET wor!! hahahaha.... DOn copy n ask for answers in exams lar!! hahahaha ... hmmmm .. this xing gan nu shen should be single now?? hahahah... soooo u all know wat to do? but i think she alot admire hahaha cause her hair so cute somemore so xing gan!! hahaha.... and 1 more thing!! she always sings in class.... n her singing is NO.1 ... lolx.... hahahaha she's gonna join Astro Talent Quest next year!! hahaha confirm will be in the finalist n top 3...!! hahaha i support u!! hahaha !! hmmmmmmm.... anyways spm is just around the corner ! good luck juuu!! 11A1 is in ur hands!! hahahaha tatazz! sayanggggggggggg!!! ; P lots of love,

From WengWai(my kor kor):

heiiyas .. lil prettie....sorry for the late testimonial. ^^ me very busy ma...=p well i can say that ju-Ju is a lil hot, pretty charming girl that always make ppl happy. lil ju-Ju is a super duper "manja" girl that melts ppl heart. Eventually... many guys will say "ok" in every request from her....(eleh... .-_-" ) why ar ?! But of course ! ju-Ju is also helpful fren and hardworkin...always say herself got a sexxyy lips !! Therefore...a lil smile from her just brighten up everyone's day. Glad to know u!5 years of same class memang tak rugi lor! haha....ju-Ju , u're a simple nice pisces girl. So be urself ...what ppls talk bad about u just let it be. Take it as an encouragement to live better in life ! ohh ya ....spm's coming. I know u can be excel in it ! jia you ohh ! Of course...take care ya ! me gtg tuition now. =) byee byeee.May God Bless u always...always...always.....and forever

From Bernard(tuition mate):

Ah.... this girl aa.. know her for 2 or 3 years (as she says). At 1st sight during a tuition class, my first perception was Wahliow, this girl Japanese aa? She doesnt look local, trust me. She looks like those cute Japanese girls like you see from the Korean drama shows. She has a beautiful smile too, i havent seen her without her braces yet though. hope 2 c her again soon hahaa.. Besides, JJ is a nice girl, eventhough she is quite shy, and i dont really understand what she speaks half the time. I dont know mandarin! =) She is a nice person to be with at times... only a little soft. haha... thats all for now. Bye!

So basically these are the few testimonials which made me laugh!!!

OH Ya guess what i found out about snowball *click mother? I called her mama dog.....

She gave birth again!!!!!!

Y lah she kena raped again??!!

Anywayz her babies are soooooooooooo blardy cute ok. *melts

2009-05-17T07:03:00.000-07:00

Went for movie with my batchmates after our 3rd sessionals=)
This is like 2 weeks back OMG i know i seldom update.

U know rite there is this 10min movie break in India(so dumb) so we went to the washroom to camwhore a bit.

Me & caryn.

Then, sneaked into her hostel (after curfew time sumore-.-). The guys were trying to distract da guard so that she cud sneak me in..and i ran with all da energy i had when i heard da guard screaming.

Me n her Mr.Teddy.

On the phone with someone *ahem*

Me.

Me&Susan.

In love with each other.

Gorgeous.

She was emo-ing so we tried to cheer her up. Then she went back to her room to study. If im not wrong she's back to US for holiday now! urgh *envy.

Due to sleepless nites during exam so we slept quite early that nite without doing anything.

The next morning her MATRON waited outside her hostel and she caught me.

and we ignored her.

"hello! hello? hello!!!!!"

I just walked away.

Why outsider cant stay in da hostel lah. I am not a guy i am just her girl fren. OMG i dun und why India got so many stupid rules.

The Harbour

2009-05-13T11:30:00.000-07:00

Went to the harbour with Max, Joe & Puvan a week b4 exam. Actually i din sleep da whole nite n jz went with them in da morning(so spontaneous) I looked supa tired SO no pic of me. lols.

I think its sucha gd experience to go there n see da fisherman loading fishes they caught..

Ok i duno the name of the fishes so i'll jz simply name them ok?

Monster fish.

Looks lk kissing fish.

This one i know. Eel.

Den we saw this supa dupa big fish..like 8 feet long?

Gosh. I was wondering how they gonna eat it.

Crabby.

Tuna?

Shark.

baby shark.

Sting ray..reminds me of Steve Irwin.

Us buying fish...

Best part was....

After u purchase everything u can send them here.

They'll clean n cut da fishes for u, charging supa low price.

And before we went back we saw this black thing which looked lk rubbish..

Its cuttlefish.

So yeah thats it.

And today a CAT went into my house i duno how it came in seriously. My door was locked. Balcony door was locked. And my hsemate woke up seeing a cat in my house so she screamed, she closed her room door thinking tt she wont ever come out again bcuz she is so scared of animals. She actually tot of bunking class sweat.

SO she msged me.

I tot she was hallucinating cz impossible there is any animals here in this apartment.(cz no one here is allowed to keep any pets)

Da moment i opened my door i saw da cat n i screamed as well. Nxt moment i squat down to pat the cat...cz i miss my dog.(i kno im so silly) My hsemate opened da door with dat shocked face of hers...so i carried da cat n told her to ring my malay neighbours doorbell. But u kno this cat is so degil she went out herself eventho i tried to block her.

and before this she tertumpah our food. Worst thing is today my maid is on holiday.

n i have to clean up.

GREAT.

One two three four five.

2009-04-29T22:13:00.000-07:00

One - My exam coming in 4 days but i sleep for like 14 hours a day. I will be wide awake at nite n sleep truout the whole morning till afternoon. Then go to the hospital and continue to sleep after that. I waste time and i study very slow i am so dead.

Two - I went to the harbor with Joe, Max & Puvan in early morning n i saw super big fish(8feet) and damn huge sting ray, u know this is different species with 2 protruding eyes at the front. Will upload the pics soon.

Three - I am missing home a lot, this is like the longest time i am here. More than 5 months sobs. ( I know i know u all alwaiz say i go home very often) I miss my dog too much and sumtimes i will be sitting at one corner imagining her by myside and smiled to myself.

Four - I am depressed that small little things around me are changing. I want everything to be the same like how it used to me. I want my grandpa back. I miss him a lot.He often appear in my dreams and as i tried to be close to him he will disappear.

Five - My hands are itching i need to spend money. So bye i think i am going to bug Joe to bring me to the boutique. (election going on quite dangerous wonder if he will let me out)

Im happy today.

2009-04-16T13:29:00.000-07:00

It's been so long since i last felt happy in my life.
Things changed. People drifted away. There is no one i can trust.
Deep down inside i clearly know what was happening, but i wouldn't wanna voice out my feelings anymore.

Thank God i have Joe with me.
And God has always been so nice to me that He opened my heart again by sending sweet people into my life.

Caryn, Susan & me.

Went for Confession of a Shopaholic.^^

This is Susan from US im soooooooo glad that i get to know her better. She's so hawt. She wears blair woldorf headbands all the time(even in hostel), she'll dress up eventho she's jz loitering around the hostel, she only wears some of her clothes for only one time^^ ok i'll tk time to know more bout her.

As time passes by i slowly realised who truely appreciated our frenship. Thank U so much tat u always put me as ur priority bcuz i think no one else did. Thanks for everything=)

Happy Birthday Baby Poo=)

2009-04-13T10:27:00.000-07:00

Wearing same punjabi suit.

Happy 22nd birthday honey PooH!

Gorgeous gaya's 21st.

2009-04-09T14:15:00.000-07:00

Gayathri's 21st birthday!

Had da partay at Roof top restaurant of Gold Finch hotel.

Flowers arranged by Gayatwi's hsemie n bf.

Started with her blowing da candles.

This is Miss Brenda she & gayatwi alwaiz hug me lk a baby=)

This is Veron we used to ask people who(me n her) is more babyish. Cz they think that we can't reli tc if ourselves.

Me n caryn. Nowadays always run to her room to eat breakfast n see her doggie Pixie. She is so fierce dat her matron let her keep this pet in her hostel. LOLs. I put tis pic for u ok alex if u know wat am i saying. Lols.

Me & da gorgeous bday girl.

Dancing ballet while others are eating. I dunno why we're lidat.T.T

ME n ei bie.

Looks lk engagement photo rite rite? lols.

da girls.

Den we hit da bar.

Puvan sayanging her=)

Me n my hsemie.

Another pic for Alex.I know u called her ling ling, caryn muiz..etc.

Us doing lesbo dance..Only we were there.no crowd.
Us taking shots.

Ok its almost 4am now. Tata.

Extracted a tooth for da very 1st time.=>

2009-04-08T13:29:00.001-07:00

Guess what i did ytd??

Tadah.

yay im very happy if u feel like puking.

I did extraction and i gave injection too^^

Actually many people did it but i went back home during my last posting so i din get to do it.

Ok it was super scary ok i came without preparing(mentally & physically) n it was my turn so sir asked me to extract a cervical abraded tooth.(there u kno the upper portion of ur tooth crown got a bit of hole there but it is not a decay, it happens if u brush ur teeth too vigorously)

Then he sent one intern to guide me. T_T

My patient was a 71 yr old man without(thank god) any medical problems. No hypertension no diabetes. Not bad eh.

Intern guiding me which area to inject.

So when i push da tip of the needle planning to slowly inject him da needle went in lk 2cm deep. T______T

Now i know oral mucosa is this soft. No wonder we called it soft tissues.^^"

Me giving Local anesthesia.Look at saeah's face she was so scared cz she will be da nxt!

Sigh so pitiful i hate being poke by a needle it is soooooo much more painful than mosquito bite ok. Doctors always bluff ppl one.(to me it is painful la)

Den after injecting i have to aspirate but i couldn't do it with one hand.(my 1st time ok im not expert,even the intern cant only my sir can) So the needle kinda shake shake abit OMG kesian my patient.

Then i had to inject at another site near the palate n my patient started screaming!!! n he was shaking his head right n left what if da needle break!!! I got scared n i pulled da needle out n let da intern inject for me. I was too scared.wuuu~ i kesian my patient.

Den is time to hold da forcep as apically as possible(near to the root) n extract it.

Me attempting to extract the tooth.

Okay 3rd year student is supposed to extract only mobile tooth but i duno duno duno why my sir gave me this case. It wasn't mobile at all.

So i supported the bone with my fingers of the other hand n started extracting. I can feel the roots moving.(2 roots, it was a premolar)

I couldn't grab it properly it was reli a lot harder than i thought it was.

N finally it came out but i fractured one of da root. T_____T

Cz i wasn't holding da forcep in a parellel direction to the tooth.

N lastly the intern took da fractured root out for me.

The whole process took around 10 mins.

Fuiyoh.

I know i sound very lousy here but sir already told me all my mistakes n im more confident now. Today i guided saeah somemore. Must read more bout it cz there are more more more to come.

Till then c ya!

2009-04-05T03:25:00.000-07:00

My hair is getting longer n longer n my split ends are distracting me alot especially when im studying i will end up cutting my hair for continuous 4 hours n i will sleep after tat cz i couldn't concentrate anymore.

So i ki siao one day n i bot a HUGE shampoo n other products to save my hair.
Hope it works. ^^

2009-03-26T11:47:00.001-07:00

Ya ya my blog is so dead and i know ok.

Exam supposed to be on 17th of April(i already marked it down on my calender n counting da days left) But now they postponed it to 4th of MAY.

Well, i'm damn free nw U know im so lazy i will find 1000 of excuses for myself so that i wont have to study. I wont rmb if i study so early i can still chill 1st, no?

Ok lately every1 here is so into fishes. Angel fish, tetras, ghost fish blablabla..n being da same old me i only like GUPPIES=) They're so beautiful, they have tails lk peacock n most importantly they multiply reli fast. I am so amazed at God's creation sumtimes.

I am so lifeless that i hop from aquarium shop to other aqurium to another one...to this to that..with Puvan n Joe cz they're supa into tetras they rare diff types of tetras in their aquarium.

and me???? I am so free ok i chose a lot of colorful guppies n da non colorful female ones but most importantly i CHOSE 3 pregnant ones.

"boss gimme dat fat one ok dat pregnant one. Ya this this this."

So i called them Mama fish n i isolated them in diff container. Their stomach were as round as pingpong n looked like they were going to burst. I watched them but nothing happened.

SO i went to sleep of course. Since i have nothing to do and thats like my biggest hobby.

1st day when i wake up from my sleep i saw 17 new small baby guppies.

2nd day i saw 10.

Today i saw 2. (this was few days back so TODAY again i saw ard 15.)

AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhh IM SO HAPPY OK!

I love watching this n i used to see my hamster giving birth too!!

I isolated the babies at a diff container so tat the MAMA wont eat them up.

And this is my new fish tank. Joe bought for me. I put all da adult guppies n da non pregnant females here! I enjoyed da buying process too. I wanted more colorful male n da owner of da shop brought me to his house n i saw a big fish pond n i ended catching guppies there myself. I feel so kampung=) YA i never had kampung life ok. I enjoy doing this i used to pick da jambu infront of my hse with my maid, she will climb up to da tree and i will clap my hands. *LAME sialz.

Camwhoring with my fishes.

We were reli damn free n today is our 2 yrs anniversary but we went out with MAX cz we reli dun mind n we want his company! Anywayz we went out for dinner n wen we came back we did lifeless things like..

Crushing da fish food. hahahaha. Cz this will be easier for da fish to consume it ok.

I tried once but i was reli very tiring so i errm camwhored la.

Looks lk i have no teeth rite.

THats it bout today.

***

Ok i went bangalore last week or last last week i reli dun rmb n im very lazy to recall it now. It was sucha spontaneous act n we bot train ticket without reli planning it cz we were too too desperate to get out of Mangalore. N guess what? Ac tic was not available n they have only the NON AC one. n we wanted sleeper. OMG i said screw it n jz tk it since we sneak out from practical class to da train station might as well jz get it n see wat we can do bout it.

SO yah da non AC sleeper was reli bad bad bad bad bad bad bad okay. N those aunties wearing sarees bullied us ok they took our places n asked us to climb up to da highest compartment to sleep! So we bugged da TT nonstop. we hopped fr non AC to AC compartment for around 3 times n finally we get to upgrade to da AC one. N finally we get to sleep properly.

Was sms-ing Joe. N i was so afraid that i will drop from da bed.

Sigh i missed him so much at this moment cz he's alwaiz there for me by myside. N he made sandwiches for us n sardin fried rice for me. When i ate this fried rice my tears jz dropped cz he made this was wat he made for me when we 1st got together. I missed him so so much!

Den i took da drowsy flu medicine dat my hsemie gave me n i slept.

We reached there in da morning n we went for breakfast!!!!! in OBEROI. A 5 star hotel. We cant afford to stay there so we only went for breakfast. 1 nite for more than 1k ringgit. Wuuu~ T.T

And we went to da washroom 1st cz we looked bad n guess who we saw when we came out?????

JOE AND PUVAN! Gosh. Our bfs cameeeeeeeee! WE hugged each other n i felt soooooooooooooooo happy. Den we went in to enjoy da breakfast.

Poo baby. She knew i lk watermelon juice(da glass infront of her) so she took 1 for me as well but it was tomato juice she mistaken it as watermelon juice n i din even wna drink it cz Im sure i will puke! And can u see a big roast pork leg bhind sigh i forgot to tk pic. N seriously how doink were we all of us forgot to bring camera. Ya so da pic quality is reli low cz we took with phone camera pls forgive us.

Went to da garden after breakfast.

Yeah can't believe 3 of us decided to come.

Da rooms.

Time to say goodbye.

Den i forgot wat we did seriously.*calls joe to ask

He told me we went shopping. SO ya we went shopping lah.

*note da shopping bag gaya holding. It was a wallet i bot for joe bt i asked her to hold it cz i wna giv him as a surprise gift on our 2 yrs anniversary.

But i gave him earlier cz we were fighting bout sumthing den we wanted to break up n i gave it to him with 2 pens(1 parker n one white color pen forgot wat brand). Den we friend back lols. Ya so childish. I know.

@ Van Heussan.

Seriously its so not worth it to shop here cz everything is so expensive. Da price of esprit, MNG, Guess is doubled da price of msia. Rm800 for a guess bag, Rm400 for esprit bag, rm400 for one MNG small handbag OMG how to shop la how how how. Vincci is triple da price of msia. A shoe Poo bought at rm89.90(da exact same shoe) is selling at rm289 here ok. KILL me kill me.

Ok den we went clubbing in da evening.

Caught in action=p NO la i was feeling cold. It was not like wat u think ok.

At da dance flr@ fuga. Da drinks there are overpriced la. SO SO SO SO overpriced OMG more expensive than MOS blardy hell.

Could have gone to hard rock sigh.

Den we had zinger burger for supper n had a gd sleep. My hotel pillow is super hugeee n comfy.

Da nxt day we went thai restaurant-Benjarong.

b4 entering da restaurant.

Complimentary food. U jz have to wrap everything in da vege n eat it.Spicy, sweet n sour. YumM.xD

The chicken was so damn yummy.

Thai tom yam soup. Not spicy enuff n we asked for chili n tambah ourselves.(imported chili padi from thailand)

Fork n' spoon.

Stop over at French Loaf.

Bought garlic breads.

Went UB city. Went in to LV shop n saw a small handbag is rm1000 more ex than UK.

Went in to this restaurant at UB city.

They serve chinese, jap & korean food.

Went to this boutique as well.

Went for Jap food with darling for dinner=)

Cost us rm100 for 2 sets of this (+ 1 pathetic cawanmushi)

Gosh i've posted this in my draft for few days to get my pics fr baby's phone but i was jz too lazy to upload guess its all for now=) n its 4am now jz woke up after having awesome chicken rice. Thanks to Amrita, Gaya & puvan. Hugs!!!

La Nosa Costra Dental Week

2009-03-11T11:28:00.000-07:00

So ya for the past 2 weeks i was quite busy with this lame dental week.

Caryn planned up something about our western dance this year that we're gonna dance SALSA & western dance on the da stage. But bcuz of some big drama with da locals(big issue bout money cz they think our choreography was too expensive) and a lot more so we quit cz everything was jz so last min and we only have like less than 5 days to practise. To avoid embarrassing myself on da stage I insisted to quit, and only concentrate on my fashion show which i only practised 2 times. AS i told u, everything was so last minute. Sigh.

So as u can see me and Winnie were da angels. Btw our theme for fashion show was Peace and terrorism. Something lidat.

Angels of 06 batch.

Da performance for cultural parade. This year managed by Max. The theme was Tribe of the world.

Poo was the MC for our batch. She can speak well=> she did a great job.

Veron da FAIRY in da 1st round of Fashion show.

Bren was da cupid n my hsemie was some bad devil.

This is our round where i nid to lift gaya's chin up. U muz be thinking why we put numbers on our dresses that was bcuz the judges nid to choose da best model out of da rest.

And this girl in da middle was da best model of 3rd year BDS. and she choreographed da whole fashion show thingie okie.

She da prettiest girl in my batch. I think she deserves this=)

He is da best male model in 3rd year=) Silver unicorn. I saw him in da back stage he was trying so hard to remove da glitters on his face k so pitiful. lol.

Da finale. Finally everything is over!

And poo came up with this idea that we climb up to 2nd flr to say goodbye to the audiences and giv them flying kisses.

She said spot da angels n fairy cz they're still around.

Da 5 of us in white!

With caryn.

I found this heart somewhr so we camwhored with it.

Me Poo Winnie

and da western dance turned out ok with Pink Panther song. OMG we were screaming n regretting cz tat was supposed to be our dance (3 of us supposed to be da cat sobs)but we quit to let da locals to join cz they wanted it so much n gave us so much dramas aRgH.

NEMAI.

Oh ya i had so much fun today we went out for sheesha and dinner. At one moment i was stoning. ^^

My sweet 22nd.

2009-03-07T10:47:00.000-08:00

Mini update: WOah i jz saw wendy's*click bday post for me.feel so touched.N i realized to mk sum1's bday interesting in India is a very tough thg to do cz we hav nth much here. Once again thanks every1!

Ok sry for da late updates. Finally i have time to blog about my 22nd bday.

So rite after Joe surprised me with dat pair of diamond earrings...I went for my fashion show n dance practice can u imagine tat i was too tired n stressed up(so much of dramas) so i quit dancing.

OK Joe came to pick me up fr college n surprisingly he din let me to go bek to my hse. I tried so hard to tell him tt i nid to go bek to shower n all but he said i shud jz bathe rite here in his hse..and he handed me my clothes. N he kinda prepared some warm water for me to shower.

N i kept asking him why cant i go down but he was changing da topics all da time.

Then..

After my shower i saw this=>

Candle light dinner with champaigne. Most of them are my fav food.

Guess what we cudnt fin da food.
His phone kept beeping having incoming msgs so i asked him who was that. n he said his mum texted him. So i asked was it amrita? Haha every1 is in my hse now rite going to surprise me rite...? Den he tried not to look at me and he said no la..Den i laughed n laughed n did sum silly expressions in front of him n he oso laughed.

HAHA KANTUL.

He brought me to my hse after dinner.

I opened my door when i saw every1 i laughed so loud(uncontrollably) n every1 started laughing like me.

And im afraid of party popper.

and snow spray.

My hsemate knew i'll get angry if they spray more so she oni spray a bit on me=D

Poo baked this cake for me. Zomg =)

My hsemate decorated da hse but she had hard time blowing da balloons.

So she asked da kids to blow for her b4 i came back.=p She promised to give them after da party ended and dey came bek to claim da balloons.

OK they forced me to tk a pic with this colorful balloons.

Pregnant women.

I opened Joe's yee sang for them to LOU but i thk they din lk it. Every1 loves to LOU oni.

My hair flying.

We share da same interest - we complain all da time!

Den i saw da pink ones on my bed. n Poo decided to sleep over YAY!

Then i took bath b4 da after party session started.

After my shower i saw dis.

Flowers handpicked by my hsemie n a card n pressie for me.

Thanks to da wonderful planner for everything.

n Thanks for all da pressies n cards. I got everything i wanted. I took a pic of all da presents but i duno whr isitt. Probably in my facebook.

I got a pair of earring again. Look exactly lk my necklace omg nw i have a set of matching earring n necklace thanks to SP!

***

We had after party after the girls gone home.

AS usual..da 3 of us.

We drank. WE played games.

we danced.

n we sheeshaa. Joe was preparing for us.

YAY.

***

Da next day..which is my bday..

I went to do powerdose to my hair in some Loreal saloon during lunch break. Den rushed to class again. N went for practice after class.

***

Then went to Taj Hotel for dinner.

They changed this to their profile pic so sweet^^

OH no i din kno they serve tenderloin steak here i tot beef is not allowed in India. I am so coming back to eat again.

Den winnie and caryn took me to da washroom.

When i came out i saw da chipmunks singing with gaya n amrita each holding a cake.

Ok they're da chipmunks.

I felt sooooo touched.

Omg i was so happy that my muscles n veins became so prominent.

All of a sudden Joe came. He knelt down n passed me a rose which i held on my hand and da other rose tru mouth. Din know my bf is so romantic=)

Ok im so tired of blogging i hope this is long enuff.

Till then, c ya.

I had a great n memorable bday. Thank u everyone for da wishes on facebook, msn, n others dat i dun bother using anymore n da pressies.
OH ya also thank u for calling me MISS wendy my bestie.

Surprise!

2009-02-26T03:26:00.000-08:00

HELLO=)

I'm feeling a lot better now!

Yeah everyday is a new day..

Yesterday me n Joe fought.
yelled at each other n he left.

But we still tok during postings cz i found him a patient but ignored him after we went home.

SO we din see each other for the whole nite.

This morning i woke up n i called him asking whether he wants to go for class.
He said today he has basketball match n he already told me on monday tat he is not going.

How am i suppose to remember?

I was angry n i hung up da call.

I was changing n i heard my housemate was still arranging her instruments in the hall but i tot it was quite late already so i wouldn't want her to wait for me. So i pretended like im waiting for Joe.Surprisingly she was still there at ard 750(class starts at 8am everyday). She is quite an early person unlike me. Den i decided to go to class with her. She told me to leave the house n get the lift 1st cz she forgot sumthing.

My mood got better cz was busy chit chatting with suphing n winnie in da class n got excited bout small little things. Den i came home n i saw my maid has prepared food in da kitchen. So i called Joe n he was at home so i asked if he wants to eat lunch in my house. He was shocked tat why was i so sweet to him den he asked...

"OH so u saw the thing on ur wall d???"

I ran to my room..

n i saw this.

With a letter attached on it but i removed it to tk pic.

"Baby, Happy Birthday in advance ok..N can i have a bday wish too? My wish is dat u will forgive me for everything n dat we'll quarrel less ok.

Baby, I've been missing you so much. When u read this later, its gonna be 24hours since we last had a proper conversation. Can we not do this to each other? I wanted to send you to college earlier but i can't find a better time to put this here w/out u knowing. Hope you won't get mad at me ok. Also i knew u were going to college with Amrita so i guess you'll be fine.

How was class today baby? did u have breakfast like we normally do?(wen i c dis me wna cry d) Do u miss me like how i miss u? How was sleep last nite?

Baby our last 2 yrs here together were filled with ups n downs but i noe the ups we had could easily drown those little downs we had. Pls forgive me if I have been harsh to you. You kno i don;t mean it. I rilli appreciate the company, the life n the love we share. Pls dun take them away from me ok. Anways I love you. Listen to the song. Sorry that the gift this time is kinda simple. I hope you like it. I din get to choose the present for you so my mum had it done for me. Hope it's ok."

He loaded da song Mad by Neyo fr Youtube in my com with lyrics page.

My housemate was soooooooo good at surprising people Omigosh she actually unlocked da door when i went to get the lift. N when Joe called her she pretended lk she was tokin to someone waiting for her downstairs.

So after i read this n b4 i even fin da song i ran to his apartment to find him.

"baby u not mad at me anymore?"

and i smiled.

Den we hugged n we kissed n manja-manja with him. So he asked me do i like that earring cz he dun think i'll lk it. See he spilled both of his surprises my GOD.

He hid it in da middle heart-shaped note he wrote. Which i tot it was nothing so i din open it.

I've always wanted a pair of diamond earring to match with my diamond necklace which my parents bought for me.

His mum custom-made it.

Why is my bf so sweet lah..?

why he like this?

;PppP

:))))

U HAPPY NOW?

2009-02-24T22:04:00.000-08:00

!@#$%^&*()_

WTF WTF WTF!!!
Okay how do i start with this?

Im jz so so so disappointed at some of the people who claimed to be ur close friends. Who always say that they love u. And blah all the nonsence so sweet which can make u melt lk no body's business.

My batch consists of like around hMm 25 people in medicine.
And I have insufficient attendance so i came during exam week.(11/1/09)
To my atonishment only me and saeah came ok.So thinking of getting attendance of course we went to sir and he said remind him about this he will give us attendance.

Today after his long winded lecture we went to claim our attendance back n guess what...
He asked me who came so i pointed my name n saeah's name n BAHHHHHHHHHh he marked the rest all ABSENT!
so my jaw n my eyes were wide open seeing him marking
A
A
A
A
A
A
A
A
A
A
A
A
continuously....

O.o

Da nxt moment every1 started surrounding the attendance book n guess what?
Started blaming us.
If not bcuz of u both we would have gotten our attendance.
And this bitch came to me telling me this...
OK i felt reli bad ok when i saw it..
but i reli couldn't stand the way they talk as if i am TOTALLY wrong for all these.
so i shouted back saying "Its ur fault rite why don't u come den???"
For no one information cz no one knows, that we actually walked around the hospital searching for lecturer to give us attendance for blardy 1 hour n can't even study after that.
And the rest of u? Nicely sitting at home studying.

So just blame me all u want okay.
Someone who was always very very nice to me ignored me when i told her that i felt reli bad for this. I am so hurt for that ok thank u for ur fakeness.
Someone so close to me mk me felt even more bad by tellin me how others reacted.
"Ya soon she n him will bitch about u."
Den some will show that im-going-to-bitch-about-u face to me.
What the hell did i do im just getting what i deserve.

N ya at least i have a heart.
IM GOING TO ASK SIR TO CANCEL MY ATTENDANCE SO EVERYONE WILL GET THEIR ATTENDANCE.
Ya i feel bad tt bcuz of us every1 was marked absent
end of my story.

N i feel reli thankful for those understanding people who alwaiz standby myside.
Im reli touched.
n im glad that God finally let me see the truth.

Innocence

2009-02-15T02:21:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day =) A belated one.
Well i gave Joe a card n thats it cz exams are still on. No mood to celebrate plus he already gave me a big packet of hershey's milk choc which i can't fin until now.
Since when i said i like choc huh?
But im quite addicted to it now tho, yummy!

Innocence - Avril Lavigne

I guess i have to say that my life was once so perfect but i never realized it.
All my grandparents were once alive n every1 was thr. Esp during Chinese New Year.
Lately i've been dreaming bout my beloved grandpa. Actually it wasn't just about him. It was about my whole family. I have sucha big family at my father's side.
I dreamt about every1. Every 1 was so happy. We had family gathering. And i sat in my aunt's Lexus n sudd i dropped da seat belt near da corner of da door of da car, and my grandpa walked pass me and i asked if he could pick it up for me. The nxt second i realized that he wasn't alive anymore so i called him..
"Ah gong?"
and he started running away from me.
I chased after him.
I was screaming.."ah gong...ah gong...ah gong!!!"
and he disappeared.

2nd time i heard his voice in my dream where every1 was there but i was not sure whether he was there. And all of us went out for a trip on a cruise. and i saw reli big Golden Buddha. So weird=) and my aunt hugged me n she prayed for me(to Jesus) tho but she was a strong buddhist, n i slept while she was holding me n i felt so peaceful.

Everything was so perfect in my dream n i hope it will never change.

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
The nxt thing i know this was jz a dream. I sat on my bed n i started tearing.

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

Why muz put title?

2009-02-05T15:00:00.000-08:00

My current shouout in facebook & Msn : I want to kill my maid rite now! NOW!

Everyone is asking me why?

Bcuz she is so clever she washed the creative mp3 joe bought for me.(lk 2 yrs ago but im still keeping it well okay, cz it has its special meaning, besides, thats like the only thing i have here sobs. Yalah other ppl already got ipod touch n iphone hmph)

Ok now talk about my sleep disorders.

Ím suffering from severe sleep disorders. I can't sleep even when i'm extremely tired. and each sleep only last for maximum 5 hours.

Sobs.

I'm supa stressed up due to my Final year part I paper. Dunno why but i told myself i muz try my best to pass it. (Fyi im in 3rd yr but taking final yr paper, da system ere is lidat dun ask me to explain). I think after passing all the previous subjects together makes me wna work harder on this as well. But i was never this stressful.

So me n my lovely hsemate came out with this conclusion..Cz she oso canot sleep...that...SOMETHING is WRONG with our house.

Ridiculous.

So ya i am awake now at 4.42am.

I bunk-ed most of my postings in da afternoon cz couldn't wake up after taking nap during lunch break. Plus i finished my quota of 10amalgam n 5GIC so bye la im not going to treat any extra patients for now. Oh but there was this one day i went to hospital and one patient came in, since every1 finished their GIC quota, no one wants to treat him(cz lazy n supa late d clinic going to close soon) den he looked at every1's face n he started walking out. Den i felt so bad n he looked so pitiful from the back i was like awwwwh so i went out and called him in, n i treated him. Restored 3 GIC.

On the other hand, to make myself memorised what i studied i actually followed Joe's stupid idea.

Stuck some important notes on my toilet wall.

So that i can rmb if this comes out in exam. Try this ok it works. Read while u shower hehe=>

And also somehow i tried using some short-cut way to study eg Photostate class notes(lecturer's power point)

So messy.

Omigosh. All i need to do is just memorise memorise n memorizeeee. U dun have to be smart to study in this field, if u have good memory u can definately SCORE in exam. Seriously. hmph. n if u canot memorise much like me, u jz have to work harder lo no choice.

Woke up at 10pm jz now. I wasnt feeling hungry but deep down inside my heart i knew that i HAVE to rush out to eat cz everything here closes at 11pm. Haha how awesome. Blardy place. grrr.

Tried out this new chinese restaurant called E X

Talk about chinese food here are some pics on CNY.

Me while waiting for the rest to come.

All are from msia except that red shirt guy in da middle, fr kuwait. I think.

Finally can see some chinese.

Ya my chinese bf. Ppl used to ask me whether i'm together with indian. Silly question.

Da food. Sry din tk when it came was too shy.

After dinner my hand was abit itchy. No matter how hard i scratch it. So i texted winnie n suphing to Jio them puak kiao. N i pulled some of the ppl fr the dinner to their house kakaka=)

Kiao gui ( gambling ghost)

Play small small oni ok like rm1 oni. And no fun la all use indian rupees like no value oni but we dun have enuff malaysian ringgit thats why. N we were eating CNY cookies i felt so thirsty but was too shy to ask for drinks.

OK i gtg back to study rite now.(max kept distracting me on msn kept sending me articles of Japan to read. hmph. He pro-Japan la)

And i wont come on9 that often ok i will hide my laptop in my wardrobe so i wont waste my time like now! I will try. I will only take out to watch The Gem of Life.

Scold me if u see me on9 ok bye.

xoxo,

Babyish Ju
(i studied child psychology n overprotective parents tend to have child who loves to feel babyish all the time. My close friends know my mum is uber overprotective. Thank God my bro is not like tt if not he'll be a gay rite now. Anywayz weird thing i'm lk his small sis now.)

Signing off at 5.50am

My short hair.

2009-01-30T12:22:00.000-08:00

Weee i miss my short hair=)

Cut it during my 1st year uni due to some heartbreaking reason. U know who you are. Anywayz dun worry i'm not angry at anyone anymore.

Instead i wanna thank u all cz i've learned a lot from that.

Joe said i look hotter in short hair T.T

I miss styling my short hair!!

In 1st yr biochem class.

I think thats all for now.

C ya.

2009-01-30T04:37:00.000-08:00

Jz finish sending an emo mail to wendy.
Guess she's reli reli reli busy rite now..no time for me.
yaya i am LOA.

Its so true that people can change...in jz a second.
How scary is that.
I hope if they change they change for the better...
Not someone who's more selfish, indifferent, unapproachable..
I hate this feeling and i felt so insecure, trying to patch things up but guess if that person intend to change u jz can't do anything.
N now..i gave up.
I no longer cry like no body's business bcuz of all these..I've been tru more than this n i kno if that person meant to be ur close fren she'll always remain close to ur heart.
I realized its time for me to accept this rather than trying to change things back to how it used to be. It was just a futile attempt.
And now..i accepted this.
I'm tired.

I jz realized this sounded bit lk wendy. Im nt toking bout her okay. She will alwaiz be my BFF.

Girls assaulted in Amnesia

2009-01-28T10:02:00.000-08:00

Updates: Nonono this happened on Saturday afternoon n i went thr on Saturday nite. We ignored the news bout ppl fighting n insisted to go. Oh God seriously this place is turning Ugly.

Rmb i told u i went to amnesia..on Saturday nite?
And this happened on Sunday afternoon...
I dun even know it was this serious...
Indian guys hitting the girls for spoiling indian culture..
And its located right in front of my apartment...
Jz 5mins walk away..
How creepy.
Lets watch.

2009-01-25T12:17:00.000-08:00

Saturday nite : Benetton had big sales so all of us went thr. Den heard some nice music at the club in da hotel. Went for dinner and came to da club. Crowd was reli bad. So we went to another club(amnesia). It was not bad. And da nxt day we got to know that there was a fight there and cops were everywhr.. Da guys were hitting every girls in da club cz they dislike those girls spoiling India culture(whatever). A guy with S class merz actually came to us and wanted to give us a ride, n invited us to the beach after party but obviously we can't go rite..bfs will kill us.

Sunday Morning: Joe cooked breakfast for me cz i woke up late. (He oso went to some bar ok bt he woke up early) Oh self defense lol.

Sausage, Bacon and cheese omelette.

Fruit juice.

Sunday afternoon: Went to buy seafood, chicken n all for today's dinner. All of a sudden i jz had the mood to cook for everyone=)

Sunday evening : They came to my hse for dinner n thank God they liked da food. Housemate reminded me to tk pic but was too lazy. Oh well nvm i can alwaiz cook again.

Sunday nite: Again went clubbing. Why? cz in this lifeless place thats the only thing we can do. And the clubs here close at 12am ok so stupid ish. They closed down amnesia due to the big fight so went to da same boring club hoping the crowd will be there but to my atonishment it was worse than ytd. So whatever winnie knows the dj n he kinda changed da songs so we started dancing. Reached home at 1230am okay(omg so early) and joe was still enjoying himself. So talked to my hsemate for 1 hour n she's jz so sweet to me. I'm glad i found a perfect hsemate for myself.

Why do i club so much i duno i think thats the only thing i can do. In this incredible India. So yah last week we went to manipal too..Here are some pics..

See i painted my door pink.(I was too bored) My owner is gonna KILL me.

Mamak-ing. All of us came for da Nasi Lemak here.

In da washroom.

We know the owner so he secretly gave us free drinks in da kitchen. lol.

Dance floor was too packed. Cant even move.

Winnie, Poo n Me.

Blue waters closes at 1230 so we went to Enigma.(an after party club n only closes at 6am)

Was super tired already. I sat down n they came n took a pic.

Tomoro's a holiday and I'm invited to a chinese restaurant by the MBBS people to makan makan YAY!

Im gonna dry my hair now. C ya.

2009-01-18T10:28:00.000-08:00

Hi, it's me again. Back in this horrible place. (well so mean)

At KLIA.

Thanks to MAS supersaver i can't change my air tic so i came back a week earlier. Went to clinics and ciao to Goa cz we were bored.

Took a night train thr and arrived early morning at 6am. Checked-in da hotel and walked ard looking for scooter. Got one den proceed to Britto's for lunch.

Britto's.

Waiting for food.

Seafood platter.

Had another huge grilled seafood platter at other restaurant but was too pissed at those indians so i din tk any pics. Oni rm85 for 1 tiger prawn, 6 king prawns, squid, half pomfret, king fish and veg.

My garlic squid. TOO CREAMY!

View fr restaurant.

Then roam around on our scooter.=>

Some stalls at the road side.

Went for temporary tattoo.

Then it's time to enjoy at the beach.

Baga beach.

Beer & Cocktail.

Everyone's in bikinis.

So beautiful.

Then the 2 hungry ghosts went for dinner.

Dinner at Spice.

Den proceed for drinks at the seaside again. There were live bands and ppl dancing lk insane monkeys.

After that went clubbing at Mambo.

The music was awesome and the whites are so HAWT. OMG.

A girl went up to dance..She was in her miniskirt n tube top. She danced so wildly n her tube dropped till her waist.

Did not tk any pic cz forgot to bring my camera. A reporter was thr tho and he took a pic of us=)

The nxt morning...

Went for breakfast.

Da person who took this pic asked Joe to hug me n put my hand like this ok. I thought indians were conservative. Oh well.

Then came to tis area whr u can't see indians.

Me & Joe.

Lonely boy.

and the abandoned ship.

So i guess that's all for my 2 days 1 night trip.

Updates :)

2009-01-13T11:06:00.000-08:00

*WapPy Birthday to MissWenDee my bestie* (when max saw my wappy he said sappy to me wtf -.-)

She has been MIA for quite sometime pls CONTACT me okay. i know u're having ur finals all the best to u.

This is us in her 21st bday party..

And now you are two two already sweetie.

Celebrated Yinz & Sze's bday b4 sze left to hk.

Speaking of bdays..

Can't help but posting photos of Yinz' bday. hahakz.

Yinz my sistah.

My hair=.=

Don't wanna post already!!!

Yinz, I heart u. I suddenly missh u so much. some emotion heaves up to my heart n i jz feel lk crying rite now...

Ok wtf i wont cry k.

I think cz she spent most of my hols with me. She has never spent this much time with me in my hols.

We met Zhi this time!!

When can 7sis ever reunite again.

Aih :((

and Hammie dreamt of me okay. He saw me in some restaurant sitting with Joe and another guy. kakaka. How nice if im in US rite now...

Shopppinggggzzzz ;D

Attended cousin's wedding in kampung..Very diff from ours in KL..

They're my cousins. My mum said we look lk one family. ^.^"

I jz realised i only uploaded this pic. But wateva la im too lazy.

Then went to my Ah ma's house(used to call ah gong's hse bt he had gone now. sad)

This is baby LiYu. My niece. Hehehe.

This is Triston playing peekaboo with baby. and Trisha his sis on his right.

It was her bday so my aunt fr sg bought her a cake. But i think the kids are more interested with da powerpuff girls on da cake.

Me & BabyTrisha.

Den proceed to my Baby's house.

This is his rottweiler. Peeing lol.

And also...

*erhem* Went MOS with my clubbing kakiz.

Not lk wat we expected tho. And i think we still love the clubs in manipal. (U'll love da clubs in Goa trust me girls)

***

I was awake since 3.50a.m and i reli duno wat shud i do now.

Let me show u..

This single removable partial denture i made.

Called up this INDIFFERENT patient of mine for insertion.

Called him a hundred times ok. Fed-up already ish. Somemore i had exams.

Trimming his denture while he was sleeping.

Ok this wat i did in Prostho department b4 my hols.

and now..

Classes started already. =.= quite sienz. Esp have to sit in da clinic for 2 n half hours doing nothing.(no patient for me today). Ytd i was sitting bside Joe (when he was treating patient) reading my magz(Models given by alex) and da lecturer caught me..Saying is not gd to do this infront of the patients go n read TEXT BOOK instead.
=.=

And i nid to practise more to be a better dentists cz ytd i couldn't find a proper position and patient's tongue kept coming near to my bur oh my god i tell u i had cold sweats I was so scared that i will injure his tongue. When i tried to retract his tongue i wont be able to retract his cheek sigh.

and my patient was so gd to ask me to do it confidently and said SRY cz his uncontrollable tongue kept disturbing me nyahaha.
sigh how la i dun like myself i wna be better!!

Anywayz as u know i came back 1 week earlier. Stupid MAS canot change date. and after sacrificing my 1 week hols accompanying Joe to Oral Surgery department(i missed a day in postings and JOE got the case for extraction!!! SHIT! i wna extract n give injection!!), den we both ponteng 2 days to go to GOA. again. will post up the pics soon ;)

My new wow wow.

2008-12-30T09:41:00.000-08:00

Nah nah nah. As promised...This is my new puppie.

Her name is Maya(given by prev owner).

7mths old.Mixed Shihtzu + Maltese.

Super notty.

Super duper restless.

But she's very pretty & adorable. Sucha cute baby.

Not forgetting my bro and my love - Brendy.

Rmb to sayang her k so kesian now maya alwaiz bully her.

2008-12-26T06:30:00.000-08:00

Now i know..
That people can change.
Environment, Friends, and especially time, play an important role in this.

Friendship used to be a very important thing to me.
But i guess people moved on as time passes by, we can't blame anyone cz we're nt here for them most of the time.
I think to persue my dreams, this is one of the things to sacrifice.
Bcuz friends can't tc of u most of the time,they have their own dreams too, even parents..One day they will leave this world..That is why we have to do this, to survive, to support ourselves..
But thinking of i'm doing something i truly believe in, i truly interested in..
Keeps me moving.
and..
Thanks for being there.

Merry X'mas

2008-12-24T09:45:00.000-08:00

Thanks people. Thanks for ur concern. Everything is fine now.=)

We got supa alot of flowers.(got more n more at the other side) Dad edi thanked every1 in da newspaper.

This is my fav. Seriously this thing cost alot..like rm300.. so ex.

The reason why i'm not blogging is bcuz of....

My fringe. Was in gardens with parents.

AHhhhhhhhhhh i duno why the hairdresser cut my fringe like this and so short sumore. I wanted something else..Argghh.

In genting.

Snowflakes. I jz woke up lah.

I look so funny with this fringe i know..

All i want for X'mas is YOU.

Oni spend time with my parents. seems lk my sistahs already forget bout me lah sigh. No need to care bout me la ok u all.

HMPH.

Merry X'mas to everyone. May all chrsitians continue to shine for Jesus.

xoxo.