Accident.

Just got back fr the hospital, too many patients before me and i couldn't wait any longer.
I had backache and headache from yesterday's minor accident. I couldn't describe how much i hate the people here.

I watched a baby delivery at a government hospital yesterday. It was amazing. But i do not want to talk about it now. All i care about was this stupid accident that happened to me cz of the stupid people here.(pardon me, i do not have a better word to describe them)

I was craving for kfc, and recently my friend bot a scooter, we thought it was just nearby so we took her scooter. I was sitting at the passenger's seat(obviously how many seats it has) and i saw the guard lifting da pole(u know when the cars pass by they open and close it) for the 2 incoming cars to enter, and somehow he saw us but he was lowering it down. And so we asked him to open it so we could pass and the driver crossed over safely and suddenly i felt an impact, a very strong impact if i were to describe it i would say It is like a big bell in a shaolin temple being knocked by a thick long tree trunk.

Yes it was that bad. and i screamed. I blacked out. My friend thought i was panic but a moment later she noticed that i wasn't acting normal. I was covering half of my face with my hands. She told me to step down, i responded after the 3rd time she repeated the same thing.. I didn't want to accept any fact that i am being knocked and not knowing how my face looked at that moment. But the most important thing to me was my eyes, i thought i was blind. Cause my spectables were broken.

And slowly i opened my eyes, and thank God i can see things around me. Then i noticed there is a big bump on my forehead, i went into the guard's room to check out my face and i saw a few scratches n red forehead. And we asked him why did he lower down the pole, he said the kid pulled it at first, and then he said da kid was blocking him etc etc etc. I'm surprised how he can just push everything away. Then we asked the kids dad to come down and u know what......he just said what can i do! and he went up! Then the guard too said that yeah accidents happen what can i do. This is how they retaliate. This is how they run away from their responsibilities.

And i called joe to come down and the both of them were discussing this matter with the guard but he doesnt even feel sorry at all. So i let it go. I'm surprised, that i can actually swallow things now whenever i feel reluctant. See how this country can change a person, see how it gave me my depression.

Feeling insecure, i went to joe's apartment, he gave me a few big ice wrapped in his dad's handkerchief. and i started pressing it against my forehead. It was painful, but i don't want any blue blacks on my face so i did it. I started sobbing then, how much i hate this country and how i feel so helpless over here. I know i can't fight with any of them. Because i kno the next thing they will kick u out of this apartment if u make any big scene. Yes they have a committee here and they are capable of making ur owner kick u out. They hate malaysian students.Since i have 6 more mths here i guess i have to endure it. I've lost my fighting spirit.

And then i demanded for a mirror. He brought a big mirror over to me and i stared at my face for like half an hour. Glad that there are no deep scars on my face.

Then, my friends brought kfc over. Thank god i have all my malaysian friends with me. I can't stay here any longer. I want to leave.